guess I qualify as "a masochistic freak" then, because often the really dark, intensely angsty stories (including death stories) are the ones I treasure, the ones I go back and reread, the ones I think about most often.

I enjoy lighter, happy stuff, but for me the more intense emotions are not generally gleeful or really happy; and I want that reality reflected even in my 'escapism' into fanfic.

so, if you write your death story, I'll be here waiting to read it. I'm sure I'll mourn that death, and hurt for the survivor, but the story will affect me, unlike the many cookie-cutter bland ones (not so much in *this* fandom) that I quickly forget.