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Wow. I totally fucked that up. I was reminding myself all day that VVC reg was tonight at 9, and then what did I do? Forgot all about it. I was working for a while and then I went to lie down and get some things off the Tifaux and came back at almost 11 and it was all full. No idea if I'll get in but then no idea if I will be able to afford to go this year anyway. I suppose being low on the waitlist will solve my dilemma, and it's not really like anyone's going to notice or care if I'm not there.
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Last night's Flashpoint made me so very very happy! Everything I love about the show was at the forefront, and the things I don't like about it were in the background.
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fan_eunice said it best and I wholeheartedly agree that if I ever flip my pancakes and take a hostage at gunpoint, I want them to send Greg Parker to negotiate me. He is just... so amazing. He knew all along that Stan had something else going on, and he was determined to help him -- not just because it's Greg's job to end it all with everyone safe, but because he genuinely understands and cares. He knows that most of us are about a valium away from doing something stupid, and his patience and kindness to even the worst of humanity is just so... augh. It makes me all sniffly.
And I loved his scenes with the new chick -- that he needed her to see that these people weren't the enemy. These people are them, minus the coping skills. I love the new chick, btw, but now I am all scared -- I want Jules back in the worst way, but... I really want them to keep her too. I loved that all the guys were just bowled over by her and badgering Greg to put her on the team. But I also really want Jules back and a chance to see her coping with what happened to her. I really don't want that to be the end of the shooting; I need to see the repercussions on her (and please let it be about her and not about her and Sam, for fuck's sake).
But then... Lew!! He totally figured out the plan to save everyone! Go Lew!! And then ED LANE. Oh, Ed, how are you so awesome? You are the awesomest dude in Awesomeville. His little backstory about his family, and the connection he made with that guy, and that guy realizing that Ed was being honest with him about understanding... and that he was doing it for his friend!! Wah. Yeah, that really got to me. And how Ed homed in on it all being about his friend, about helping Stan get some kind of payback or whatever... oh, Ed. I love you so much. I want to have your little sniper babies.
That's the thing I love about Flashpoint -- it's a lot like many of the shows I've gotten hooked on that, even if they're procedurals, have an element of family and cohesion and love about them. Ed is that guy who brings coffee to the three guys who took over an office building at gunpoint. Greg is that guy who says a hostage taker is "having a really bad day" and means that without sarcasm, just a way of getting people to understand the stakes regular people are dealing with. The show has this humanity about it and when it transcends the sometimes '70s-TV cliches it often has, it's just so affecting. It isn't just about having the coolest guns and the tech toys and the gear porn. It's about them helping to save lives and change the way things are going in the worst possible scenarios.
Oh, team. Oh, Ed and Greg. Oh, Jules. I love you all so much! It may not be the most sophisticated show ever, but it's one of the most human I've ever watched, and I love it so much. When I was making my vid for it, my favorite part of the song was the repeating phrase "it's the only moment that counts/ is right now/ is right now" and using clips of people holding their loved ones or showing someone they care about them. That's really the core of this show, and last night made me love it something fierce.
Cutest thing I heard this week was on a making-of for 3:10 to Yuma on HBO, where Ben Foster, who plays Charlie, talks about how he had never ridden a horse before, and early on he was black and blue all down his legs and butt -- "it was like I had chaps" and he was just lying NAKED in his hotel room, whimpering and crying. It was so funny, especially since Peter Fonda prompted him for that and then sat there laughing while he said it.
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Last night's Flashpoint made me so very very happy! Everything I love about the show was at the forefront, and the things I don't like about it were in the background.
I think
fan_eunice said it best and I wholeheartedly agree that if I ever flip my pancakes and take a hostage at gunpoint, I want them to send Greg Parker to negotiate me. He is just... so amazing. He knew all along that Stan had something else going on, and he was determined to help him -- not just because it's Greg's job to end it all with everyone safe, but because he genuinely understands and cares. He knows that most of us are about a valium away from doing something stupid, and his patience and kindness to even the worst of humanity is just so... augh. It makes me all sniffly. And I loved his scenes with the new chick -- that he needed her to see that these people weren't the enemy. These people are them, minus the coping skills. I love the new chick, btw, but now I am all scared -- I want Jules back in the worst way, but... I really want them to keep her too. I loved that all the guys were just bowled over by her and badgering Greg to put her on the team. But I also really want Jules back and a chance to see her coping with what happened to her. I really don't want that to be the end of the shooting; I need to see the repercussions on her (and please let it be about her and not about her and Sam, for fuck's sake).
But then... Lew!! He totally figured out the plan to save everyone! Go Lew!! And then ED LANE. Oh, Ed, how are you so awesome? You are the awesomest dude in Awesomeville. His little backstory about his family, and the connection he made with that guy, and that guy realizing that Ed was being honest with him about understanding... and that he was doing it for his friend!! Wah. Yeah, that really got to me. And how Ed homed in on it all being about his friend, about helping Stan get some kind of payback or whatever... oh, Ed. I love you so much. I want to have your little sniper babies.
That's the thing I love about Flashpoint -- it's a lot like many of the shows I've gotten hooked on that, even if they're procedurals, have an element of family and cohesion and love about them. Ed is that guy who brings coffee to the three guys who took over an office building at gunpoint. Greg is that guy who says a hostage taker is "having a really bad day" and means that without sarcasm, just a way of getting people to understand the stakes regular people are dealing with. The show has this humanity about it and when it transcends the sometimes '70s-TV cliches it often has, it's just so affecting. It isn't just about having the coolest guns and the tech toys and the gear porn. It's about them helping to save lives and change the way things are going in the worst possible scenarios.
Oh, team. Oh, Ed and Greg. Oh, Jules. I love you all so much! It may not be the most sophisticated show ever, but it's one of the most human I've ever watched, and I love it so much. When I was making my vid for it, my favorite part of the song was the repeating phrase "it's the only moment that counts/ is right now/ is right now" and using clips of people holding their loved ones or showing someone they care about them. That's really the core of this show, and last night made me love it something fierce.
Cutest thing I heard this week was on a making-of for 3:10 to Yuma on HBO, where Ben Foster, who plays Charlie, talks about how he had never ridden a horse before, and early on he was black and blue all down his legs and butt -- "it was like I had chaps" and he was just lying NAKED in his hotel room, whimpering and crying. It was so funny, especially since Peter Fonda prompted him for that and then sat there laughing while he said it.
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It's not a long waitlist, and people always have to back out.
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(And room spaces always seem to become available.)
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My job involves trying to convince people to pay their child care bills.
This is starting to get really weird.
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I would so very notice and care if you weren't there. We could flip out and take the VVC llama hostage, and then they'd send Greg to talk us down, and Ed would bring us coffee, because a llama once bit him and he FEELS OUR PAIN, and it would be AWESOME.
So, see, you have to come.
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We are not going this year (Me, M & M that is) sadly. It was not a not getting regged in time thing, it was a determination of funds in advance and the decision to skip a year and recoup. I am v. sad, but sucking it up, because the house needs a new electrical panel, and they are laying people off at my work left and right.
You can always hop a plane and come here instead, have a mini-con with us! It's actually very nice here that time of year -- well, okay, a little hot... but nice! And we have a grill!
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Well,
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I know that I can't really afford it, anyways, and I'm feeling really sad and down lately about lack of friendships and people kind of abandoning me and whatnot, and so I think going might just make me feel worse, but at the same time -- there's something about being at the bottom of the list that makes you feel bummed.
Why are we so freaking crazy?
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To tell the truth, I'm feeling really down right now, very alone and very lonely, if you know what I mean. It's just... really kind of a struggle right now, because the person I would expect to room with will probably want to room with someone else because apparently I'm no longer friendship-worthy or something. I feel very isolated, and this time of year is really awful for me, so the whole reg thing just makes me feel kind of worse, but I know it's probably for the best. I don't think a dozen people will be off the list, but odder things have happened (and they upped the initial count this year, so...)
You're possibly the only person who'd understand when I say that every day, I wish more and more that it was me who died. Most people think I'm saying I'm going to top myself any moment, but I know you know what I'm talking about -- just that constant feeling of hopelessness. Something about all this, and the vid community and how it's changing, makes me just feel... I dunno. Maybe it's just for the best if I don't get in. I won't have to spend money I don't have and worry about finding a roomie and whatever.
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And yeah, I understand. I'm trying really hard to keep some perspective, and hope to rekindle my creative spark which, at the moment, feels like a cold, dead ember.
::hugs::
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