That time of year

[gwyn]

I am seriously behind in everything, but especially in posting here. Outside of Yuletide stuff, I've been far too radio silent, but I'm heading into that time of year when I'm even more silent. I'm missing my sister beyond belief this year, and although I have some plans for my birthday, it just feels too empty this year. I know it's the cancer talking--I've gotten used to trying to just power through having a birthday solo, but doing it this year with everything that's going on...it's unexpectedly hard.

Anyway, I suppose that's why I put my name in on the Holiday Love Meme, which I usually don't do. I've been going through it, trying to leave some comments where I can (I feel like such an Old, with so many people I don't know!), but it feels funny to put my own name there.

I need to really get cracking on my Yuletide fic. Writing in my head is not useful when the deadline is drawing near! Also, I don't think I'll be posting a fic on my birthday, which feels...really awful. I feel like such a loser. But there's just been so much going on between treatment, pain, all the changes in my house (I haven't posted about it, but OMG have I had to spend a lot of money making fixes to my house). It's just been ALot.

Anyways, here's my spot, she said embarrassedly:
✨ holiday love meme 2023 ✨
my thread here

Comments

[dine]

I'm truly sorry that life has been so definitely A Lot for you. you're right, this time of year does seem harder, even without those sorts of complications, because of the emotional load, and the media bombardment about perfect holidays

[goss]

*hugs you*

[jenab]

*hugs*

[kass]

I am thinking of you and holding you in my heart as Tuesday approaches. I will always think of you and your twin on that day.

[klia]

You're not a loser, you're overwhelmed, and you're also doing the best you can at the moment. Sending you 💜 on your birthday.