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[gwyn]

You know, I'm well aware that I'm not the kind of fan writer that people go "oh, she posted a new story, I'm going to go read immediately." But having someone say they saved your story till they ran out of good fic is…just astoundingly tone-deaf, nasty, and demoralizing.

Thursday I'm having a dreaded medical procedure that I've been avoiding for years. Now that I'm officially an Old, my doctor's wanted me to have a colonoscopy, especially since my twin died of cancer, any kind of screening test is pretty important--and we don't know any other medical family history, since I'm adopted. I really, really hate bodily functions things. Like, I'm nearly phobic about talking about it, and I flap my hands and sing la-la-la really loudly whenever people talk about it. So I really, really do not want to do this, but since the fucking Republicans are determined to take away any health care I can have, and I earned so little the previous year that I qualified for a lower deductible, my doc and I decided to take ALL the tests this year. I just had a new MRI for my back (nothing useful, still nothing to be done that will really help), and now this, and there's some other things I'm hoping to do later on while I have the chance.

I have a bit more to write on the next chapter of Celluloid Hero and then should be able to send to beta and post, then I have to get started on the pod-together story, and meanwhile I'm desperately racing to finish this Star Wars vid for the Premieres show at Vividcon. Still have a little under half to go, it's taking forever and making me cry. Why can't I find a nice, horizontal hobby where I can lie down and not be in agonizing pain?

Comments

[batwrangler]

Ugh.

*hugs*

[destina]

But having someone say they saved your story till they ran out of good fic is…just astoundingly tone-deaf, nasty, and demoralizing.

Aww. :/ I guess it's all in how you look at it? I have a full set of browser tabs for exactly this emergency (my apocalypse window), and in it I've saved what are probably going to be excellent stories in various fandoms by Cesca, x-art, paperclipbitch, and others. I like having a fallback position for when I run out of great things to read, so that I never run out of great things to read. I lack context for what was said to you, of course, but I because of how I hoard fic like a greedy dragon, I would default to thinking that's how it was meant.

[musesfool]

*hugs*

[mackiemesser]

*facepalm* I am sorry for the tactless fic-reader. Even if it was a case of Wording Very Badly, they still could have taken a moment to think about it.

I keep telling myself to make Dr's appointments, but I hate them so much, it's very hard to do!

I can't think of any horizontal hobbies off the top of my head. Being bipedal kinds messes with that.

Ummm...at least you aren't here in 117 degree weather?

[aurumcalendula]

ugh. *hugs*

[innie_darling]

Sugar, we're here for you. Specifically, I had a colonoscopy recently, and if you need to hear about someone else's experience, I'm happy to share.

[amalthia]

I tend to save stories I know will be good for travel reading. I need really good stories to distract me from my fear of flying. Though I don't tend to tell authors when I do this, just in case I blundered and made it sound like a back-handed compliment.

[kore]

//hugs

I'm glad at least you have the ability to get the tests done, even in spite of the fucking Republicans, although medical tests really do suck.

[lilly_the_kid]

Ugh, I don't get that kind of thing. I've had various people commenting on a vid, saying they'd be back to comment on it later - and never did. I don't understand this at all. I mean, no one owes me a comment but why announce it and then not do it?

[roga]

Uhhh what? I have your fic saved too, and I'm saving it for a flight when I need something fun, because on travel days especially it's good to have something fun to look forward to.

[sineala]

*offers hugs*

[ranalore]

WOW. I mean, just wow, what a shitty thing to say. I'm so sorry. I'm waiting to read Celluloid Hero until it's done, and trying hard not to bounce with impatience, because new Gwyn! I would go on a re-reading spree, except I'm supposed to be adulting and get the final paper for this class written before Sunday. *sighs* The teacher already admitted he fears I know more about this than he does, why can't they just hand me my degree and call it good? And then if only I could get paid for reading....

I had a colonoscopy. The preparation was the worst part, for me; the combo of being hungry and having to drink a large amount of a solution that tasted strongly of baking soda outweighed soreness on the scale of bad.

[kirbyfest]

Uggggh. I need to get a colonoscopy too and am dreading the living hell out of it.

The feedback thing-- well, fuck that. It's just rude.

[sperrywink]

Ugh about the fic thing. Not cool.

Good luck with the colonoscopy. I hope it comes out clear.

[spikedluv]

Wow. That is a shitty thing to say, and to hear. I hope they meant it differently than how it sounded because who says that?!!

Colonoscopy, yay! (Kidding.) The prep is the worst part for sure. I have two tips from my one experience that you can ignore if you wish: 1) taste test whatever liquid you decide to mix the stuff in to make sure you can drink a gallon of it without puking, and 2) start the prep earlier than they suggest unless you want to be up ALL FREAKING NIGHT. I started at 2pm or so, my mom actually started at 10am! It affects what you can 'eat' that day, but at least the trips to the bathroom stop before midnight. Good luck!

*hugs*