gwyn: (steve rogers fullhouse)
2017-10-03 08:47 pm
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New chapter Celluloid Hero

Celluloid Hero (38770 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 8/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Golden Age Hollywood Actors
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott, Jack Warner, Delmer Daves, Ida Lupino, Hedy Lamarr
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit, Pining Steve, Period Typical Everything
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.



In which Steve has some terrible, horrible, no good very bad days, gets snared by a gossip columnist, and encounters a German spy--or does he?
gwyn: (yuletide lights)
2017-10-01 01:27 pm
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Signing on

Usually when there've been fannish aid auctions, I've been too busy with crazy deadlines to consider putting my hat in the ring, and only been able to participate by bidding on people (never won). But even though I do have some work now, and am still recovering slowly, I felt like I could participate in a new auction that hans bekhart started for Puerto Rico, [community profile] fandomlovespuertorico. There are more fans offering all kinds of works every time I check it, so if you have something to offer to help raise money for aid to Puerto Rico, take a look and consider signing up, or if you are interested in bidding, check out the ever-growing list of participants. (It's definitely heavy on the Stucky fans, so if you have some other fandoms or 'ships that you can offer, that would be cool!) Signups close October 15, and bidding will run on October 21. My offer is here.

Also, it's that time of year to sign up for Yuletide. I'm a mess about what to do--last year, I wrote in a really popular fandom, but my story just got savaged in some places I was reading around in and had some bad juju elsewhere, the whole experience was kind of bad, and I still am on the fence about whether to de-anonymize my fic. It left a really awful taste in my mouth, just generally, so I feel like I want to be super, super cautious about what I offer, plus I just have no idea what to ask for. The Adjustment Bureau, which I posted about the other day, is microscopic and dead, but you know, I would love that most of all; I could ask for more popular fandoms like The Good Place, but I also kind of feel like those fandoms won't be hurting for requests or offers. Plus I just now feel like there are things I cannot do justice to, that whatever I do will be…lacking.

I'm waiting for beta feedback about the next chapter of Celluloid Hero, and it was really really hard to get that thing out--it's not that I don't have all the thoughts rolling around in my head, but getting words out has been really difficult since I got home from the hospital. I kept telling myself every day "I'm going to write," but then every day I just kept looking at tumblr or watching TV, and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. My focus is limited, my mind's kind of all over the place…and now I have work, which is a very annoyingly badly written memoir, so that's adding to the malaise. But I want to sign up for Yuletide, and I have to find a way to make my brain work and make the words come out.

I feel like I've kind of hit a plateau--the incisions don't seem to be getting much better, despite trying to increase my intake of things like vitamin C, which is supposed to help wound healing, and make myself eat more good food. I did get out last week to a restaurant, which was the first time I'd been out since before surgery, and that felt like a big step. Yesterday I drove up to Shoreline and I was at a bash for four hours, plus the long drive, and that was most definitely a big deal. But I still feel like things just aren't getting better--objectively I know I'm better, but the incision that's a big seeping hole is still a big seeping hole, and the others just aren't closing completely, enough to take the damn steri-strips off, and my skin still hurts and I'm so exhausted after my walks. I don't need the cane when I start out, but even just four or five blocks and I lean on that thing so hard by the time I'm almost home. Sleep is just so difficult now that I'm off the dilaudid, nothing much seems to help. I know I am better, but it just feels, a month on, that I'm nowhere near normal, that that's hundreds of miles away.
gwyn: (bucky confusedface)
2017-09-18 10:40 pm
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Every day is exactly the same

Oh, I totally forgot to mention in my last post--you remember a while ago when someone had asked me about translating my Groundhog Day/time loop fic I can't remember how this started (but I can tell you exactly how it ends) into Russian, only they had to remove the comment in order to get help translating it through some kind of fest? And I thought it was so strange but it turned out to be some kind of fandom battle where teams compete against each other, so everything had to be anonymous? Well, the translation was posted the other day (or at least, I think it's still the same person involved, though the poster had a different user name, but I can't imagine who else would have been interested in translating it), so if you were ever inclined to read that fic in Russian, you can now! Не могу вспомнить, как это началось (но расскажу, как закончится) is here on AO3.

I also forgot to mention some of the TV I've been watching during recovery. There were some shows everyone told me required absolute attention, which is not often how I watch TV these days, so I kept saving them for when I'd have time to really watch.

The Expanse was the first one, and I can see why people like it (I've only seen the first season since it's free streaming on Amazon; I'm not gonna pay 20 bucks for the second season, though), but it suffered from the same thing that pretty much all SF and fantasy suffers from that I really, really hate: it's still largely a show about men, with one or two roles for "strong" women, who are stuck representing all of our gender. One woman on a spaceship with all guys, one woman in politics surrounded by all guys…I'm just so fucking weary. And the small supporting female roles are all defined by their relationships to men--the police captain or whatever she was, the other woman, both defined by their relationships to creepy skeevy Thomas Jane, Juliette Mao by defying her father, by the men she's dealt with in the past. Maybe the second season is better, I have to hope so. I like the worldbuilding, but this hundreds of years in the future and women are still barely in the story; I have no more patience for stories where we're writing alternate worlds that suffer from the exact same myopic shit we have now.

[personal profile] belmanoir watched GLOW with me, I think we saw the first three, maybe four, episodes? I liked it, but I have to agree with a lot of what I saw in complaints about the show--Ruth is a terribly unlikeable person to hang your show on from the beginning. Not being likeable isn't inherently bad, there are great shows with horrible characters at the center, but she doesn't have a strong enough character to make you want to follow her on the path to redemption the way a lot of those stories do--when you have an unlikeable protagonist, you really have to beef up a lot of the other things to make them compelling. The other problem we both had was that they're spending way, way too much time on the men and not enough on the secondary female characters. Especially the wrestling dynasty girl, I want to see way, way more of her, and I don't give a fuck about the men. It's a huge mistake to spend so much time on the skeevy director guy or Piz the producer, especially in a story about these women. The '80s stuff is hilarious, though, and I love the soundtrack and I'm interested to watch more, I just hate knowing that they're going to keep spending so much time on the guys.

I've seen the first few episodes of Sens8, and I'm baffled by why people love this so passionately. But I'm hoping it gets better as it goes along; as it is right now, the only character I care about is the Mexican actor and his boyfriend, but that's not a lot of screen time. I mean I get that people like it because it's one of the few shows with main storylines of gay and lesbian and trans people, and I can definitely understand that, plus there's the international stories instead of it being yet another subset of white America, but…nothing's sparking with me so far and some of the stories are so over the top ridiculously unbelievable and stupid that I'm gnashing my teeth--but I'll stick it out at least through the first season to see if it gets better.

I watched all of the first season of Bojack Horseman and…wow, was that fucking depressing. It's billed as a comedy, of course, but I never laughed once, not even at all the fun it pokes at Hollywoodd or the guest voices or anything. It's just so goddamn bleak. It took me a while to get past the bizarro concept (the style of the world, with animals being partly humanistic and partly animalistic, and vice versa, is something that creeps me out beyond words), but I really wanted to embrace the show because I know a lot of people who love it so much, but I didn't expect it to make me wish I'd never woken up after surgery. I sometimes feel like that's all that's left of the future, this sort of miserable existence where you're just wasting time till you die, and the show made me feel that x1,000. So thanks, show, for making my already suicidal tendencies even more pronounced.

I'm self soothing by watching the first three series of The Great British Bake Off, which they won't show here for inexplicable reasons (on PBS and Netflix, season 1 is actually season 5, and season 2 is season 4, which just…why). It was interesting to see how the show evolved. I was kind of disturbed by one contestant because she was so clearly an abused woman, she showed every behavior I ever saw working at the shelter years ago--either abused by a husband or possibly a parent farther back, but since there was no husband in any of the home segments or the finale and her children said some really telling things, I'm betting it was an ex-husband. Good on her for participating, though, but it made me really uncomfortable many times because I kept wondering if the producers realized how it was coming across on screen. Still, it's fun to go back and see some of the things I've heard about in the show but never saw, and the show honestly, even when you're tense for the people you want to win, is so pleasant.
gwyn: (steve rogers shield)
2017-08-28 05:50 pm
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New chapter Celluloid Hero

Celluloid Hero (33916 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 7/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Golden Age Hollywood Actors
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott, Jack Warner, Delmer Daves, Ida Lupino, Hedy Lamarr
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit, Pining Steve, Period Typical Everything
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.



Finally, a chapter update! Chapter 7, in which Steve has some script notes, and gets his v-card punched by the world's most beautiful woman.
gwyn: (bucky steve mouths)
2017-08-25 10:50 am
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New fic for the Pod-Together Challenge

A Bullet in the Barrel of Your Best Guy’s Gun (6456 words) by gwyneth rhys, reena_jenkins
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes
Additional Tags: Uniform Kink, Costume Kink, But You're Keeping the Outfit Right?, Bucky Barnes's Metal Arm, Anal Fisting, Rimming, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Steve Feels, Podfic, Pervertibles, Kitchen Supplies As Lube, Audio Format: MP3, Audio Format: Streaming, Podfic Length: 45-60 Minutes, Community: pod_together, Pod_Together 2017
Series: Part 2 of Star-Spangled
Summary:

“So that’s what this is about. Wanted to see if I remembered enough to be your little Pavlov’s dog if you wore the outfit.” He slipped his hands into the back of the trunks and gently tugged them down. “Well, pal, I am here to tell you: woof woof.”




My podficcing partner pinch-hitter [archiveofourown.org profile] reena_jenkins had the idea to make a fanmix related work of Bucky's sexy playlist from the story, which you can also download and listen to--it was my original partner's and my headcanon that they unironically loved Barry White and other '70s R&B stylings, that it would mesh seamlessly with their love of music from their era like Billie Holiday. She added some great stuff from the '80s and '90s that I'd never even heard before. You can check it out and download here.
gwyn: (al cheers)
2017-08-24 10:38 pm
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All we're looking for is love and a little light

Tomorrow I have to start the first steps for getting ready for surgery--they make you drink this Ensure-type drink called ImmunoBoost or something, three cartons a day for five days before the procedure. I guess it's supposed to help your body recover faster or something. Then by end of weekend I have to start a small diet change, and then take antibiotics, before I have to do the insane ritual special soap shower, which I bought today, and take the vile liquid they make you drink to clean out your colon (it's like drinking gatorade-flavored cooking oil). I'm confused about why you take antibiotics when you're just going to shit them out, but whatever. I also have to get a very specific carbohydrate drink for the day of the procedure. Just the laundering everything/special shower stuff is going to drive me crazy alone. (Also, I can't find any of the Popsicle flavors I want/am allowed to have, anywhere, and you can't eat these modern fancy pops because they're not clear liquids, they have pieces of stuff in them.)

I'm feeling really depressed, and as I was telling minim calibre last night, I'm having this constant erratic beating or pounding of my heart, and it's freaking me out because sometimes I'm so stressed I feel like I'm having a heart attack, and I worry this could be very bad for the anesthesia. Some of this is worry about my situation, but it's compounded by trying to help people I know who are in bad straits. I feel really alone, and a lot of the people who were there at the beginning are noticeably absent now, I guess it's no longer glamorous two months on--not to mention many of the people who do want to see me or talk to me aren't doing it because I want to, but because it's about making themselves feel good, like if I die they'll have done their duty of being a pal or something and mostly I just would be fine with them going away.

The times when I'm loneliest and most scared are late at night, and there's no one to talk to at that hour. The past few days, my lower abdomen has felt kind of bad, and it's making me worry that maybe the tumor has gotten bigger, that all this waiting's made the situation a lot worse. That's not helping.

Plus I get either the victim blaming or concern trolling (my diet, my weight, my lifestyle, my whatever) or the helpful information version of victim blaming: it's dairy (because it's not like people across many cultures have eaten other types of dairy like sheep or goat or horse milk for centuries, or even cow dairy, and didn't get cancer), it's carbs (ignoring the fact that carbs are actually an important part of diet and for some of us high protein/fat is actually dangerous, and there's a reason they make you drink carbohydrate drinks before and after surgery, and also, millions of people eat carbs without getting cancer), it's refined sugar (which, I admit, I use too much of probably, but since sweet is one of the few things I enjoy taste-wise, and millions of people eat way, way more sugar than I do and don't get cancer, I'm not buying it), it's gluten (which many people enjoy without getting cancer, and if you don't actually have physical conditions or problems with gluten, it's not going to give you colon cancer anyway), it's blah blah whatever thing you are currently believing all the bad press about.

Everyone seems to think I have some kind of team behind me, despite telling them repeatedly that I don't--no oncologist, no therapist, no nothing. I learned really fast that people don't listen to most of what I say, because I have to keep repeating myself. I'm kind of dreading going to the hospital because my ex wants to take me and it makes sense--he lives basically about ten blocks away, but he drives me bug-shagging crazy because he never listens and I have to tell him the same damn shit over and over, and he gets really fluttery and panicky. He texted me last night with "where do I drop you [at the hospital]? Address??" and I was like, okay, I've told you three times that it's Swedish on Broadway and James and you could look up the damn address yourself, and also, just because I said you didn't have to stay does not mean I want to be dumped on the fucking doorstep. If you don't have time or want to come in to the hospital with me till they walk me through reg, then let me know because I want to find someone else." I well remember his selfish, childish hatred of hospitals when I needed him, when we were together and my mom was sick. It was one of many things that led to us splitting.

Anyways. Tomorrow is also the day my fic and the accompanying podfic for the [community profile] pod_together goes live. I started this thing before the diagnosis, and to say it's been a wild ride is putting it mildly. I absolutely did not want to write the story I ended up writing, but it seemed like my original teammate didn't like the idea I loved, so somehow I ended up writing 6k of metal hand fisting, I don't even know. I never wanted to write a sequel to Man With a Plan, but here we are. The good news is that, because it was such a rollercoaster experience, and lifestuff happened with me and my teammate, [archiveofourown.org profile] reena_jenkins, who has created some wonderful podfics of my stuff before, came in as a pinch hitter a couple weeks ago and she did an amazing job. She suggested we turn Bucky's sexy playlist into a fanmix, so that'll go live with the story--she had some great song ideas to fill in the gaps of my '90s and early aughts knowledge, and it turned out pretty cool, I think.

She also, as a runup to our challenge pieces going live, recorded a podfic of Man With a Plan, the "you're keeping the outfit, right?" porn I wrote a few years ago. Which is so above and beyond the call of duty. If you ever wished you could hear a podfic of Man With a Plan, well, you can now, thanks to Reena's amazing powers!
gwyn: (steve rogers shield)
2017-07-04 01:42 pm
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Fic: new War Dogs story, podfic

Just a little vignette for Steve's 99th birthday.

We Could Just Run Them Red Lights (3030 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes
Additional Tags: Service Dogs, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Steve Rogers and the 21st Century, Bucky Barnes the Dog Whisperer
Series: Part 3 of War Dogs
Summary:

Steve wanted a different celebration: to honor a part of their past and move forward into a new kind of future.



___

And I woke up to the most wonderful surprise today: [archiveofourown.org profile] reena_jenkins posted a podfic of Dream of Caramel: or, A Recipe for Disaster, and it's just delightful! She has an amazing reading of Clint, a special guest for his inner all-caps monologues, and makes fantastic use of the music that runs through Clint's head throughout the story. I can't wait to listen to more. If you've ever wondered what a podfic of that story would be like, now you can hear it!
gwyn: (steve rogers shield)
2017-06-23 09:37 pm
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Chapter Update: Celluloid Hero

Celluloid Hero (29728 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 6/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Golden Age Hollywood Actors
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott, Jack Warner, Delmer Daves, Ida Lupino, Hedy Lamarr
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit, Pining Steve, Period Typical Everything
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.



Chapter 6 finally posted! In which Steve doesn't do well at his own premiere, learns how to play the Hollywood game, gets to know Ida Lupino and Hedy Lamarr, and receives a very important envelope.
gwyn: (bucky steve mouths)
2017-06-12 12:59 pm
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New fic for the Cap Reverse Big Bang

Save my life and I’ll save yours (24272 words) by gwyneth rhys, Elendrien
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: Steve Rogers, James "Bucky" Barnes, Natasha Romanov, Sam Wilson, Sharon Carter (Marvel), Tony Stark, Everett Ross, Helmut Zemo
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Captain America: Civil War (Movie), Spies & Secret Agents, Espionage, the Moscow Rules, cap family, Accidental Kitten Rescue, Military Commendations, Bucky Barnes Recovering, Protective Steve Rogers
Summary:


What if Bucky had actually escaped in Bucharest?


Now the race is on to find out who framed the Winter Soldier—and why. Cap and his family of soldiers and spies must rely on old-school tradecraft, coded messages, covert meetings, mistaken identities, and the Moscow Rules to bring Steve back together with Bucky.



I feel like my whole life I've been working on this fic. It's taken so much effort, and I have no idea why…oh wait, I know: it's because I was trying to make sense of the incoherent. But now it's up, with the art, including a cute sketch of Bucky rescuing a kitten, because gratuitous self-indulgent animal rescue is how I roll. Hope you enjoy!

Now onward to the Hollywood WIP and infinity and beyond!
gwyn: (spuffy band kathyh)
2017-06-04 12:21 pm
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(no subject)

I had just started checking my flists the instant the Vividcon announcement was posted, and so for a while I was just sitting there in shock and sadness and of course no one was posting about it because it had just happened. I spent the rest of the day just being miserable and sad, finally checked back and there had been some reactions. Seems like a lot of people are "shrug, whatever" and fine with it, but I am not. When your life is pretty shitty, having something to look forward to, people you love and only get to see in one or two places a year, is important, and this means I'll never again see a lot of people who mean very much to me, after next year's con. This fannish thing is something I'm stuck with, I've always been one and I will always be one, and having places to participate with that is incredibly important to me. And yeah, okay, I understand what they're saying (although I can't help wondering if an every-other-year format wouldn't help, I don't know), but it still feels very much like I'm/we're losing Sandy and Zen and Abby all over again, and that really fucking hurts.

On the other hand, I had a laugh yesterday when I got a notification that one of the fic translations I'd mentioned in my last post actually was posted; I really had given up on all of these things because it had been soooo long. If you ever wanted to read Your 21st-Century Boy in Russian/Русский, this is now a thing you can do! It's really fascinating to me how fans translate fic, especially things that have cultural nuances and idioms that might not be easily translated, and it was fun talking to secretlytodream about the "takes a village" approach she used to make sure she was getting everything right.

These kinds of things, I guess, are why I will always be a fangirl, even when I'm not really into anything in particular.
gwyn: (bucky confusedface)
2017-05-05 03:14 pm

New fic Homeland/Cap crossover

I'm kind of reluctant to post this anywhere just because the only two people who even want this ship are me and the person I wrote it for as a birthday present, but in the interest of finding something to post when I'm this down, I'm doing so. This is only baby's second crossover, and with an even smaller audience than the first one!

Four Times Quinn Encountered the Winter Soldier, and One Time the Soldier Engaged (4076 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Homeland, Captain America (Movies)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Peter Quinn
Characters: Peter Quinn, James "Bucky" Barnes
Additional Tags: Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes, Assassins & Hitmen, honey traps, Spies & Secret Agents, Precious Fucked Up Assassin Babies
Summary:

What a fucking waste if they’re keeping him somewhere off the grid when he’s not on the clock; he’s a walking wet dream. “I’m not in the habit of not reciprocating a fantastic blowjob.”

gwyn: (bucky end of the line)
2017-04-22 03:46 pm

Squeeeee

A while ago, the artist who made the three incredible pieces for my Stucky Big Bang story opened up a few commissions slots, and even though I had to dip into the "sell a few things for funds" pot, I really wanted to work with her again. I gave her a couple of fics that she could use for the commission idea, if she wanted, and she really liked my Christmas fluff piece War Dogs, so she arted the first scene in that fic. I am just so thrilled with this, I can't say, it captures the way Bucky befriended the guard dog and their connection together, and I'm all flaily.

bucky and gretel


There's a tumblr post here if you prefer that sort of thing, and after a lot of hair-tearing I finally figured out how to put the image in the fic (the instructions in the AO3 FAQ are completely utterly useless).
gwyn: (steve rogers fullhouse)
2017-04-15 02:52 pm
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Legends of Hollywood

One of the things I'm really enjoying about writing Celluloid Hero, my Steve Rogers Goes to Golden Age Hollywood and Makes Some Movies, is the research and figuring out which real people to bring in and which to make up. I always love research, anyway, especially in the film world and WWII because I have a fuckton of books and articles and whatnot to flip through, but it's particularly fun with this story because I get to bring back all those memories from my teenage years, when I was a raging film buff and think about the different types of actors and films I responded to most.

It's fun getting to slip little nods to this or that into it--I'm not sure if anyone but me is watching Feud: Bette and Joan on FX right now, but it's been a riot seeing all these little elements I've turned up in my own research for my silly little story also turning up in the series at the same time. Like, when I was talking about which actress would punch Steve's v-card with [personal profile] dorinda and she mentioned the rumor that Joan Crawford had done stag films, I was almost bouncing in my seat at the restaurant--I knew that was gonna have to go in, some way. And then this week that rumor became a major plot point in Feud and I was squealing with delight. In, I think it might have been the first or second ep they had Hedda Hopper referring to Louella Parsons as an incontinent cow, which delighted me no end because that's something that comes up in a future part of the story, something I found when trying to decide which gossip columnist would terrify Steve--I'd never known that about her despite having read what I'd thought at the time were some pretty detailed articles. If you ever wanted to know about the feud between Hopper and Parsons, there's a Vanity Fair article from quite a few years back in their archives that is magnificent.

Harder, though, has been writing like Louella Parsons wrote for the little tidbits in the story. Not only is there a distinctive style to reporting back in those days, but she had a…quirky voice, let's just say, to begin with, and her fame and power to ruin people's lives amped that up quite a few notches. Copying someone's style--especially one so idiosyncratic--is the hardest parts of these chapters, but it's also kinda fun.

And then there are the people whose histories have been so manipulated by their estates or by themselves that you don't have anything to really work with, so you have piece together enough of a picture to write a real person who seems believable yet true to their image. Cary Grant and Randolph Scott's long-term relationship is so whitewashed and edited, and their families and homophobic fans so adamant in their denial that they loved each other for decades, is heartbreaking and infuriating, but it also means you have to create things out of the ether because outside of first person memories that are few and far between and some photo shoots of the two of them together, there's next to nothing to work with. And Grant never gave interviews or did press; very little exists out in the world except a few small recordings of him talking on tape--it's almost all people who seem to have a vested interest in maintaining the fictions about him.

But I admit I kind of love this stuff, at the same time, figuring out all the different interpretations or making small nods to real-life people or bringing in places and people that can represent them. In one chapter I mentioned Gene Tierney being super good friends with Howard Stark--in real life, Howard Hughes (who Stark is modeled after) had tried to seduce her but she rejected him, though they stayed friends for the rest of their lives, so I figured why not have the same situation happen for her and Howard Stark? And it was really fun in this latest chapter to bring in Betty Carver from Agent Carter, the damsel in distress version of Peggy she hated so very much. I figured Betty had to come from somewhere, and why not the comics first before she was used in the radio show Peggy loathes.

I do tend to lose myself down a rabbit hole of reading, though, that right now I can't really afford: I need to work on my Cap Reverse Big Bang fic very badly, and I have less than two weeks to make my Club Vivid vid, which I haven't started on because I've had so much trouble conceptualizing it. Plus there's work, and a friend's birthday coming up I'd like to write a fic for that would be literally only us who know and like these characters together, which somehow makes it feel more important since that's a gift that only I could give to only them.

But it's just…kind of all I want to think about, the various ways poor fish out of water Steve would become so disillusioned with this insane place, and the people he would meet, while he makes those films we see in The First Avenger. I figured there had to be at least two, since the Red Skull says "I am a great fan of your films" plural. That would definitely require time there, or wherever he made them, and it offers such a great, sprawling cast of potential characters or people to use as a model for original characters. Plus you can add in all kinds of wartime hijinks and shenanigans or pathos or what have you--it's wide open.

And as much fun as I'm having, I'll be sad when the story ends. But I hope to write a couple of…I don't know, sequels or timestamps or whatever the kids are calling them these days, to show both Steve and Peggy once he sees her again and her reactions to everything, and Steve and Bucky once Bucky finds out about all the things Steve wrote to him about that he never got to see, and maybe even a modern-day story with Steve and Sam about his big Hollywood lifestyle Sam never knew anything about.
gwyn: (skinny steve helmet)
2017-04-13 06:09 pm
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New chapter update

Celluloid Hero (24399 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 5/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Golden Age Hollywood Actors
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Period Typical Attitudes, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.



Chapter 5: in which Steve sees himself on film for the first time, avoids gossip columnists, attends big Hollywood parties, and notices something suspicious.
gwyn: (steve rogers fullhouse)
2017-03-23 10:43 pm

Chapter Update: Celluloid Hero

Celluloid Hero (18494 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 4/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Golden Age Hollywood Actors
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Period Typical Attitudes, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.

gwyn: (bucky end of the line)
2017-03-09 06:20 pm

Happy 100th birthday, Bucky

To the Rescue (4360 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Timothy "Dum Dum" Dugan, Gabe Jones, Jim Morita, Jacques Dernier, James Montgomery Falsworth, Chester Phillips
Additional Tags: Dogs, Military Dogs, Bucky Barnes the Dog Whisperer, the Further Adventures of Bucky and Gretel the Howling Commando, Rescue Missions, World War II
Series: Part 2 of War Dogs
Summary:

“You never kiss me like that,” Monty commented.


“That’s because you never lick me like that,” Bucky said with a smirk, as Gretel did just that, licking his hand and his neck.

gwyn: (steve rogers fullhouse)
2017-02-22 09:05 pm

Chapter Update: Celluloid Hero

Celluloid Hero (13688 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 3/?
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Steve Rogers, Bette Davis, John Garfield, USO Tour Dancers (Marvel), Original Characters, Barbara Stanwyck, Gene Tierney, William Powell, Cary Grant, Randolph Scott
Additional Tags: Golden Age Hollywood, Hollywood Canteen, World War II, The Star-Making Machinery, Propaganda, someone's going to get his V-card punched, and by someone I mean Steve, Letters, Period Typical Attitudes, Minor Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, First Motion Picture Unit
Summary:


The talk of the town last night was Captain America’s star-spangled appearance at the Hollywood Canteen, where the ladies swooned and the gentlemen cheered. Rumor has it he will be meeting with studio heads to discuss bringing his patriotic man with a plan to the silver screen.

gwyn: (walken wonderland)
2017-01-01 12:43 pm
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End of the Year writing recap

I didn't write nearly as many stories this year as I have in previous years, but that was made up for by the fact that most of them were long honking huge things of more than 30,000 words, and one was a WIP that I posted over a couple months, so. I'm definitely at a lower word count than I had been in 2015 (though apparently more than in 2014!), but counting the two things I wrote in December, it brought it up to a respectable number, considering that I've felt mostly like a worthless failure that no one wants to read. I wish I'd done more of the comment fic prompts people gave me back after Civil War, to get out of that malaise, but who knows, maybe that's something I'll go back to this year.

I'm not gonna go month by month since some months I didn't have anything, these are just the stories what I wrote:

How Do You Fondue? The little Valentine's Day fic
I Meant What I Said When I Said Until My Dying Day One of the interludes I was writing based around the Civil War trailers and my guesswork
Don't Wait Up for Me The WIP, where Bucky and Sam go to the place Bucky fell for some closure
All we've got (is what no one can break) The last of the interludes based on the trailers
Dedication A little tumblr fic I wrote for Memorial Day
Clean Skin A comment fic about Bucky in Bucharest (I feel like that should be the title of an adventure comedy, don't you?)
The Bucket Another comment fic for Civil War, about Three Caps in a Bug
Stealing Home The final story in the baseball series
Still Let Me Sleep My Stucky Big Bang entry, a dreamsharing epic
Sway With Me The coda to Still Let Me sleep
These Long and Better Days To Come A shrinkyclinks, nonlinear narrative fic I abandoned back last January 1st and finally finished in November
War Dogs A little Christmas fluff, Bucky and Steve and dogs

Thinky thoughts part of the meme )

my final word count wasn't too terrible, all things considered:

140,477
gwyn: (bucky steve bar)
2016-12-23 01:25 am
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New fic: War Dogs

Just some quick, last minute Christmas Stucky with dogs.

War Dogs (3055 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Timothy "Dum Dum" Dugan, Gabe Jones, Chester Phillips
Additional Tags: Dogs, Service Dogs, World War II, Military Animals, Christmas Presents, Christmas Fluff, Bucky Barnes the Dog Whisperer
Summary:

With a deep, world-weary sigh, the colonel glared at him and said, “All right. Fine. Keep your damn pet. But if it does anything that costs me my super soldier, you’ll be strung up, drawn and quartered, turned into ground round, and then fed to her, is that clear?”

gwyn: (bucky confusedface)
2016-12-18 01:35 pm
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Podfic: I can't remember how this started (but I can tell you exactly how it ends)

Over on Tumblr, the lovely kiwikero has recorded a podifc of my Groundhog Day Bucky/Steve story "I can't remember how this started (but I can tell you exactly how it ends)." I was just gobsmacked when she asked me--she assumed that many people must have already asked and I'd probably turned them down and I laughed, because so much nope and as if. And I figured that'd be it, that it wouldn't really happen, but within about a week she had recorded and edited it and posted it last night. I've only been able to listen to a little bit of it, but it's fascinating to listen to someone interpreting words that were so…interior, I guess, for want of a better word, just words that were really close inside me because it was a super tight limited third person POV for the Winter Soldier as he slowly becomes Bucky Barnes.

Anyways, she's also relatively new to both Stucky fandom and podficcing, so if you wouldn't mind showing her some love, I'd really appreciate it; she hasn't really heard anything except from me, and I'd love to encourage her to consider doing more, I think everyone benefits from more fanworks, you know?




[Podfic] I can’t remember how this started (but I can tell you exactly how it ends) (31 words) by kiwikero
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Brock Rumlow, Sam Wilson (Marvel)
Additional Tags: Groundhog Day, Time Loop, Temporary Character Death, Podfic, Podfic Length: 1-1.5 Hours, Audio Format: MP3
Summary:

“And this is the thing, Steve. I would rather relive this day for eternity than watch them win and you die, or see you be enslaved to them the way I was.”