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For Yuletide this year, I gamed the system so hard (something I've never done before) so I could write one of [personal profile] bond_girl 's prompts for the 2007 movie Sunshine, starring Cillian Murphy and Chris Evans as a "science ice prince and competent military hothead" fighting with each other across the solar system, among an incredible cast that includes Michelle Yeoh, Hiroyuki Sanada, Rose Byrne, and Benedict Wong.

The Sun Was the First Star We Knew (12720 words) by gwyneth rhys
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Sunshine (2007)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Robert Capa/Mace
Characters: Mace (Sunshine), Robert Capa, Kaneda (Sunshine), Corazon (Sunshine), Searle (Sunshine), Cassie (Sunshine), Harvey (Sunshine), Trey (Sunshine)
Additional Tags: Slow Burn, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Everybody Lives, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Always Listen to Captain America, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Survivor Guilt, Touch-Starved
Summary:

Capa was only five years older than him, but Mace felt like some middle-school dipshit who’d been suddenly, inexplicably befriended by the star high school quarterback.



I never really talk about my Yuletide reveals, like, that didn't occur to me, but apparently it's a thing some people do, and [personal profile] minim_calibre wants me to do it. I've written longer stories for the exchange (last year, for instance, my Push/Political Animals crossover was 14.5k), but this was definitely the one with the most world-building I've ever done, and I guess I do have some things to say about that.

My writing always starts super late, because of the damn birthday at end of November, and this year I had multiple rush editing projects through November and December, and then there was the whole thing with getting pieces of me cut and burned off and the fucking infection in my face, so the fact that I got 12.7k done with extensive world- and relationship-building kind of boggles my mind. Plus, I felt like I could write this forever, but I knew I needed to bring it to a close so it felt like a standalone story, bring it to a natural conclusion. But man, I didn't want to give up Mace and Capa at all. There were multiple prompts I could do, too, so who knows, maybe I will do them, even though this is one of the smallest, least active fandoms I've ever written in.

A couple years ago, [personal profile] bond_girl guessed my Gifted story, so I was constantly afraid she'd know it was me, and also, she mentioned my Sunshine vid of a few years back, Havoc in Heaven, as her mood board for her prompts, which added a whole other layer to OMG how do I keep this secret. I thought for sure she'd guess me, especially with all the world-building in this thing, because I do go on.

It helped enormously that HBO was showing Chernobyl again, because I realized that was the tone I wanted: elegiac, a little haunted, tense, where two guys start out as enemies, become friends trying to save their world, and in this case, fall in love. I also had just watched The Terror, and that had the similar tone: "Are we brothers, Francis? Because I would like that very much." Ugh, swoon. I live for that kind of shit.



There was this Robert Altman movie in the late '70s called Quintet that my friend and I, who are the only people who liked and remember it, just really adored, even though it's an objectively terrible movie and I normally despise Robert Altman movies. It's about this future ice age where the last dregs of humanity survive in outposts and are obsessed with this board game called quintet, which I never understood completely. I was just fascinated by the apocalyptic feel of it, and what an ice age would do to people, and so when I saw Sunshine (back when I hated Chris Evans! when I thought he was weird-looking and unattractive! what was wrong with me?! I mean, he was one of my favorite characters in the movie and yet that didn't get me over the general dislike of him as an actor back in what...2008, when I saw the movie) I immediately latched on to that solar winter horror and never let go.

In the movie, the sun is dying gajillions of years ahead of schedule because of this theoretical thing called a Q-ball, and our intrepid astronauts are taking a "stellar bomb" to reignite it and save the planet. There's a strong implication that things are covered in ice and snow anywhere below the Tropic of Capricorn and above the Tropic of Cancer. So I started thinking about what would survive, trying to remember some of the stuff they did in Quintet, but since the movie's not available anywhere easily, I was pulling from a lot of other sources, including conversations with my science fiction authority and real sciencey BFF. Every time I'd think about what would happen for people in the wake of a dimming sun, I'd think of another thing: like, first, food production would be affected on a global scale, which would lead to people moving further and further toward the equator, which would mean larger countries like the US and China and Russia would be invading everyone, which led to things like food riots, which led to animals dying off (sob!), and so on.

And none of that is especially cheerful, but since I was already in a terrible mood brain-wise especially after my cheek got infected, and I'd finished my first draft, I started plunking in all these things that people would get used to, terrible things that no one would want to get used to but that they'd gradually not even realize they were accommodating, that whole boiled frog thing. One thing I really didn't want to do was have a lot of expository dumps, so I had to work all this in as organically as possible, with how it affects Mace (Evans), who's the POV of the story, just giving little hints of these things in his backstory.

Because man, that whole mission is just one big setup for massive PTSD for all the crew: the first mission to bomb the sun disappeared, no one knows why, and there's no more material left for them to do another mission after this one, so they have ALL of humanity's, the world's, hopes on their shoulders. If they fail, everything dies. Mace has this impassioned speech about how they have one mission, that's it, and if they fail, everything they care about dies. Unfortunately, no one listens to Captain America and they go off-mission to see if they can find out what happened to the first mission when they catch its distress beacon. Then everyone dies, but fortunately the payload gets delivered. It's...not a cheerful movie (seriously, rocks fall, everyone dies), but I kept thinking about "if they return home, if they don't go off-mission, then they're going to have some serious emotional issues." Especially Mace and the physicist who created the bomb, Capa (Murphy), because they'd be the ones who said no, we're continuing on course.

And it takes years to journey to the star and then from it, so there'd be a completely different world to come back to--one with a bright, hot sun instead of the slowly dying one that someone like Mace would grow up with. So then there's another whole layer of trauma you'd have to deal with. Humans are good at trying to science the shit out of things, so they'd come back to a world of rebuilding, but it would have been decimated when they left. How much would that mess with your head? A lot. The answer is a lot.

So all that was rolling around in my head, and also, I wanted a way for these two guys--who attack each other and are kind of shitty to each other the whole movie until the very end, when there's this "homoerotic" connection as director Danny Boyle called it--to get together, to be drawn together and see past their differences. They would have had a high degree of empathy, though, and so I could imagine that drawing them together, pulling them closer when they got home, because they share a very unique bond (one that Mace thinks of in the fic as partners in crime because they didn't go off-mission to the first ship). Which means, also, that in the post-Winter world, they'd both want to keep doing things to help humanity, and Capa would be THE rock star scientist everyone would want to work with on whatever project he was doing to make that happen. Having him enlist Mace into a project seemed like a natural extension of it--Mace is a superb engineer because he made the cut for the mission, at least it seems to me that's the natural conclusion. [personal profile] minim_calibre gave me a great little idea for a way to start them talking.

I collect weird little bits of data to use in fiction (like the monument in Bulgaria that I used in Don't Wait Up for Me), and I saw this post on tumblr about how many people who were born without hearing but gained it in later life thought the sun would make a sound. A few people added to that, and one of the points was that the sun does make a noise, we just can't hear it through the vacuum of space, but if we could, it'd sound like a train horn going off a few feet from our faces, ceaselessly. Which since Mace is dealing with PTSD from a mission to bomb the sun, became the line that the sun made the sound of exploding bombs. I was really happy with that one.

Other weird little data bits: bio-dome experiments where people try to live in self-contained environments, greenhouse farming as a way to offset climate conditions, the Svalbard seed vault in Norway and the potato museum in Peru, photos of deserts where carpets of flowers or trees come to life that haven't been seen in decades because climate change has brought rains there, a bridge collapse that happened up north of here a few years ago because we already do such a shitty job of infrastructure maintenance in this country. The desert's "Cave of Swimmers" in The English Patient.

And I thought a lot about what to call things, how we give names to cataclysmic events--I thought they'd probably refer to this period as the Winter, and the name the Melt came about because it would be catastrophic when all that ice and snow began to melt away and subsumed islands, coastal lands, etc. A number of years ago here, we had an ice storm followed by like almost a foot of snow, followed by another ice storm and then rain where the temperature didn't go up enough to melt all the snow, so it became completely waterlogged, paralyzing the city because unless you had a super high clearance vehice, even tire chains wouldn't help you get around in it. Buildings collapsed, trees fell on houses and cars, it was a nightmare. I couldn't stop thinking of that, but all the names I tried didn't sound right till I hit on the Melt.

We'd also have to give up things like having pets, because commercial food production would be so devastated, livestock-keeping would dry up except toward the equator and eventually there too. There have been serious food riots in countries struck by famine, so...that. Repopulating abandoned areas would be slow going, especially with a decimated population (and yeah, seeing Avengers: Endgame this year brought a lot of this to mind, as well). They couldn't fly airplanes any longer outside equatorial regions.

You could have your pick of real estate, and probably jobs, as they rebuild! But I also think that they wouldn't return exactly to the old systems, or at least, a lot of people wouldn't want that, so I could see a guy like Capa using his big squishy brain to fix the new problems, and that's how I could bring Mace and Capa together. I wanted it to be positive, under all the sadness, where these guys find love in a hopeless plaaaace.

(Also, this is, weirdly, the first time I wrote intracrural sex, and that surprises me! But I didn't want the smut to be too smutty, at least at that point, because I wanted it to be more about these enemies to friends to lovers. See the mention of Chernobyl and The Terror.)

Okay, that's almost as long as the story itself, yikes. All in all, despite my doubts, I think I achieved what I set out to, and this is maybe one of my favorite things I've ever written, one of the best things I've done, too, and judging from the long and excited comment from my recipient, it succeeded.

Date: 2020-01-02 12:27 am (UTC)
minim_calibre: (Default)
From: [personal profile] minim_calibre
Yay!!! I loved reading about the process. (More later.)

Date: 2020-01-02 04:02 am (UTC)
minim_calibre: (Default)
From: [personal profile] minim_calibre
I agree with your assessment that this is one of the best things you've ever written. It's up there with one of the best things I've read in fandom, frankly. The way you wrote the world, your word choice, everything...ugh. I am rarely filled with "THOSE WORDS, OMG!" jealousy. Like, maybe two or three times in my fannish life, total, and not since Buffy days until I was reading this. My comment on the fic was a small subset of the lines I wanted to give praise to and worship. (Look, I went to bed after 3 am. I am not the most awake person at the moment, so sense? This may not make it.)

And I thought a lot about what to call things, how we give names to cataclysmic events--I thought they'd probably refer to this period as the Winter, and the name the Melt came about because it would be catastrophic when all that ice and snow began to melt away and subsumed islands, coastal lands, etc. A number of years ago here, we had an ice storm followed by like almost a foot of snow, followed by another ice storm and then rain where the temperature didn't go up enough to melt all the snow, so it became completely waterlogged, paralyzing the city because unless you had a super high clearance vehicle, even tire chains wouldn't help you get around in it. Buildings collapsed, trees fell on houses and cars, it was a nightmare. I couldn't stop thinking of that, but all the names I tried didn't sound right till I hit on the Melt.

Oh, man. Yeah, I see how that would TOTALLY have influenced how you built the world in the story. (The one where all those marina roofs collapsed, right? I think that's also the one where Mom and Dad had friend who was flying out of Sea-Tac park his car at their place in Three Tree Point and then the ice storm brought a tree branch down on said friend's car.)

Date: 2020-01-02 03:33 am (UTC)
mackiemesser: Ollie (Default)
From: [personal profile] mackiemesser
OMG I totally missed that there was Sunshine fic! I love this strange movie that no one's ever heard of. :)

Off to read!


............................................

I really enjoyed that. Such a thoroughly filled-out AU. The relationship is just the cherry on top of this very interesting world that is developing with the revived sun. I think all of our awareness of climate change these days makes the movie a little more "real" than it was 12 (!!!!) years ago, so this feels like a very likely sort of future.

Also, I really love how you've captured how...otherworldly? Capa is.

Date: 2020-01-03 01:45 am (UTC)
mackiemesser: Ollie (Default)
From: [personal profile] mackiemesser
With a lot of Yuletide stuff I think "Yeah, I liked that, but do I actually want to read fic on it?" Most of the time, I pass because I'm satisfied with canon and I probably miss some good stuff, so I appreciate you highlighting this coz it wouldn't have occurred to me to look for it.

Date: 2020-01-02 05:48 am (UTC)
sperrywink: (Avengers Steve Bucky Faces)
From: [personal profile] sperrywink
Huh, I've never even *heard* of Sunshine the movie? Maybe because I've never been big on apocalypse stuff. But I loved reading what you did with the movie set-up. *bookmarking for later*

Date: 2020-01-02 05:48 pm (UTC)
bond_girl: (Default)
From: [personal profile] bond_girl
I was completely fooled! Someone on an anonmeme mentioned writing for what looked like one of my 'A Single Man' prompts, so I was expecting that and I wasn't sleuthing around :)) You were so suspiciously tight-lipped about what you were doing for Yuletide though :)) It should have been a clue that you were at least writing for someone you know! And I thought while reading that this mystery author is as fond of CEvans & his roles as much as I am (which is a lot, lmao) -- and how nice it was to share the love! And what came across as personal knowledge of the Pacific Northwest. It really is the case of the biggest DUH. Anyway, Miss Marple I was not!

I can't believe you wrote all this on such a short notice and while feeling quite under the weather! It's stupendously well-researched and thought out! Sometimes, one carries the building bricks of a story in one's mind for years as you say. I don't know if we're just this specific kind of nerds, but I really so got into your story's environmental worldbuilding. Idk, you made the apocalypse science RIVETING. Just fascinating to explore the nuts and bolts of how a solar-winter would reverse itself. And I was just over the moon that Capa was still in the business of saving the planet with his brain and that he saw it as a way to help Mace. I saw that tumblr post about the sun and planets' noise as well - so my mind instantly connected to it, it was just YEAH.

If there's a fic where I'd love to see writer's notes, it's definitely this one! I now totally see how HBO Chernobyl's aesthetics are a perfect inspiration and I will somehow unearth the Altman movie because it sounds extremely captivating and RTMI. Thank you for sharing how you came up with the Melt - it was early on, and I instantly said to myself oh this is going to be GOOD when I came across it. It's one of my favorite details in the story and it fascinates me as a concept.

So, Danny Boyle said Capa and Mace's thing was homoerotic? VALIDATION. God I hope it's okay that I'm commenting on the porn as well - it's great to watch them reverse the polarity on their feelings and push each other around with a wholly different ~magnetic intent! That weird little second when they both have a jolt of a physical memory of their previous shoving matches was really well-done, and it touched on what I wanted from my space-based prompts so perfectly. I really like writing and reading intercrural, so it was hot - thumbs up from me all around!

The pet waitlist nearly killed me omg! I stopped reading and started yelling to my husband on another floor about it :D

Anyway, this line of "Are we brothers, Francis? Because I would like that very much." is also killing me now, this is the kind of shipping dynamics I live for. THANK YOU.

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