Obsessed with the damn note
May. 7th, 2003 07:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwynMore spoiler potential from Touched!
I'm obsessed with the note Buffy left Spike. I keep thinking of what a wonderful opportunity it was, one that we'll never have, a glimpse of her we don't usually get to see. So like about five million other fans, I wrote one in my head. All day today. ;-) So for a couple of you friends, this is what I wish she had said.
Spike--You were right. I can take it back, and that's what I'm going to do. I don't know exactly what I'm looking for, but I'll know it when I see it, and I know it's at the vineyard. Of course you'd want to come with me, but that's why I didn't wake you. I have to do this one on my own. The difference is that now I want you to be there when I get back. I'm not very good at expressing myself, like I said. But all this time, through everything, you found the real me, the one I didn't want others to see, and I never once had to figure out how to express that to you. Somehow you just knew. And now you've seen into me again, and given me a reason to keep going, a reason to believe. Thanking you for that, and for staying with me, seems so lame for something so important. If the thanks come with my love, though, will that be enough? Wait for me, and tell me.
I'm obsessed with the note Buffy left Spike. I keep thinking of what a wonderful opportunity it was, one that we'll never have, a glimpse of her we don't usually get to see. So like about five million other fans, I wrote one in my head. All day today. ;-) So for a couple of you friends, this is what I wish she had said.
Spike--You were right. I can take it back, and that's what I'm going to do. I don't know exactly what I'm looking for, but I'll know it when I see it, and I know it's at the vineyard. Of course you'd want to come with me, but that's why I didn't wake you. I have to do this one on my own. The difference is that now I want you to be there when I get back. I'm not very good at expressing myself, like I said. But all this time, through everything, you found the real me, the one I didn't want others to see, and I never once had to figure out how to express that to you. Somehow you just knew. And now you've seen into me again, and given me a reason to keep going, a reason to believe. Thanking you for that, and for staying with me, seems so lame for something so important. If the thanks come with my love, though, will that be enough? Wait for me, and tell me.
