If I dare it to be true
Mar. 9th, 2019 10:55 pmI'm jealous of all the folks getting to see Captain Marvel right away. With a book due on Wednesday and the usual ridiculous deadlines this publisher gives me, there's no way I could go before Thursday. Good thing I love spoilers.
This is never my favorite time of year, especially when I have work. The anniversary of my sister's death was the 5th and it's always a struggle, still, forever I suppose. It's never really helped by being in Southern California for Escapade, because everything reminds me of her so acutely: the birds of paradise blooming, the sunshine, jacaranda trees and hibiscus plants, eight-lane roads and U-turns, the California license plates. I always feel as though I'll turn around and she'll be there.
The con itself was okay, mostly good because I got to spend time with some favorite people. I got my In-N-Out Burger fix with![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dorinda on Thursday, which was great. There were definitely some things I didn't enjoy about the con, like listening to assholes shit on something I helped a friend make, but having melina sob on me over Dream helped balance that out a little. I'd forgotten she hadn't seen it at Vividcon. The Captain America panel was okay, I guess, it's always hard for me to tell about these things. But people seemed happy to talk about Cap fandom and whether it's the end of the line, and it was good to see familiar faces there.
Things were a little iffy with my Stucky AU Big Bang story, my first artist disappeared completely before posting date, and then it was three days before I even had one single comment (she eventually showed up, but at least I had a great second artist for posting day). Then I signed up for the Captain America Reverse Big Bang, mostly so I could see the art because last year's experience left such a bad taste in my mouth, and I...accidentally signed up for the wrong art. ::hands:: I have sort of numbers dyslexia for a few number combinations, and I have no idea why, but I thought "well, I'll put in some selections for art and won't get them, so then I'll just drop out and call it good" because I really wasn't sold on participating. But somehow I transposed numbers in my head and now I have a pairing that I've never even thought of. The art is really lovely, though, andcesperanza was throwing out some really great idea possibilities, so hopefully I can come up with 5k for this pretty art. (And fortunately the artist is flexible about gen or slash, so I don't necessarily have to write a romantic relationship for the two characters.) This is so totally the sort of thing that happens to me, though.
I read a fantastic article about a new book about historical gay Brooklyn, and the book sounds great (Walt Whitman cruising the Navy Yard!), so if you're writing historical Steve and Bucky or just interested, there's a link at my tumblr here.
This is never my favorite time of year, especially when I have work. The anniversary of my sister's death was the 5th and it's always a struggle, still, forever I suppose. It's never really helped by being in Southern California for Escapade, because everything reminds me of her so acutely: the birds of paradise blooming, the sunshine, jacaranda trees and hibiscus plants, eight-lane roads and U-turns, the California license plates. I always feel as though I'll turn around and she'll be there.
The con itself was okay, mostly good because I got to spend time with some favorite people. I got my In-N-Out Burger fix with
dorinda on Thursday, which was great. There were definitely some things I didn't enjoy about the con, like listening to assholes shit on something I helped a friend make, but having melina sob on me over Dream helped balance that out a little. I'd forgotten she hadn't seen it at Vividcon. The Captain America panel was okay, I guess, it's always hard for me to tell about these things. But people seemed happy to talk about Cap fandom and whether it's the end of the line, and it was good to see familiar faces there. Things were a little iffy with my Stucky AU Big Bang story, my first artist disappeared completely before posting date, and then it was three days before I even had one single comment (she eventually showed up, but at least I had a great second artist for posting day). Then I signed up for the Captain America Reverse Big Bang, mostly so I could see the art because last year's experience left such a bad taste in my mouth, and I...accidentally signed up for the wrong art. ::hands:: I have sort of numbers dyslexia for a few number combinations, and I have no idea why, but I thought "well, I'll put in some selections for art and won't get them, so then I'll just drop out and call it good" because I really wasn't sold on participating. But somehow I transposed numbers in my head and now I have a pairing that I've never even thought of. The art is really lovely, though, and
cesperanza was throwing out some really great idea possibilities, so hopefully I can come up with 5k for this pretty art. (And fortunately the artist is flexible about gen or slash, so I don't necessarily have to write a romantic relationship for the two characters.) This is so totally the sort of thing that happens to me, though.I read a fantastic article about a new book about historical gay Brooklyn, and the book sounds great (Walt Whitman cruising the Navy Yard!), so if you're writing historical Steve and Bucky or just interested, there's a link at my tumblr here.
