gwyn: (8ball wizzicons)
I have pages and pages and pages I could write about BSG, the finale, and why I broke with the show as a fandom a long time ago, but honestly? I don't think anyone would want to read that, so I'll just sum up my general feelings with an immortal line from another show that mired itself in its own mythology and was lost by a showrunner with a bloated ego and a tiny brain:

Sure. Fine. Whatever. (Dana Scully)

And I also am incredibly upset by and feel like I have something to say about much of the fannish vitriol spewing on one specific thing about the finale, but again, I don't think anyone really cares about my opinion on it, but I will say it anyway and put it behind this tag so you don't have to read it but I can get it off my chest )
gwyn: (chief tyrol infinitemonkeys)
Man, movies not to watch on back to back nights, especially when you're already in a state of depression and anxiety about the incredibly sorry-ass state of the world: I Am Legend and Cloverfield. Even worse, don't follow up with a chaser of Battlestar Galactica 4th season midpoint finale. (Also, reasons No. 3,481 and 3,482 not to live in NYC.)

I get frustrated that no one seems able to actually take Matheson's incredibly cinematic tale and make a movie that's true to the story. But at the same time, I found Will Smith's loneliness and increasing insanity to be really evocative and haunting. The movie stayed with me, which was unexpected. Even though it's not the movie I want, it was still worth watching, and it's one of the rare horror thrillers I've seen in the past few years to stay with me.

And you know, Cloverfield was fun to a certain degree, but I find that my need to know why always trips me up in enjoying these things. I'm like Gwen in Torchwood's Countrycide ep -- I just have to know WHY. And I want to know why the monster -- was he like Godzilla, created out of nuclear waste and toxins? Was he a project of the military? I must know but the movie didn't tell me! (This isn't only movies, either -- I have to know why people are batshit or stupid, too. You know that thing with the crazy fracking woman who went to Wiscon with the intention of humiliating people, and that whole firestorm last month? I always want to find her and just ask her, "What is WRONG with you?" Because man, I even looked up some of those behaviors in DSM IV and I couldn't really find a category for her, so crazy is her shit, and I feel like I must know how someone could be that deranged and not be in a state-run facility. It just eats at me, the not knowing.)

And I have one thing to say about the BSG finale )
gwyn: (king ianto hex_graphics)
Oh, I never talk about the shows I'm watching lately. I guess I just don't feel that inspired to dissect and discuss and analyze the way I used to. When I'm enjoying something, I just want to, you know, enjoy, and when I'm thinky about something, I think about it to myself and then am too lazy to post. But this weekend I caught up on a lot of stuff. Most importantly

Torchwood season 2 finale )

And then there was new Who )

BSG season 4 premiere )

And then tonight, I made [ profile] mlyn come over to watch Vin Diesel's first full-length movie, Strays, which only came out on disc a while ago. I didn't think I could handle it without someone to help me through cringing, but it actually wasn't as bad as I expected. Vin was much goofier and sweeter than I had expected, and he does love showing off his bod, so I can't complain in that regard. Though a lot of wine also helps. But we got a glimpse of the bootay, we got to see him in black boxer briefs, and he spends most of the movie in a white undershirt or variations thereof, so... really, you can't ask for a lot more. Also, he sings. And pretty well, too.
gwyn: (8ball wizzicons)
Yesterday started off very badly when Brent told me that the thing I'd driven all around town to find was the wrong thing. I even endured a bunch of guys at the hardware store laughing about me when they thought I wasn't there, because of my inability to remember the name of what I wanted. Then it just went downhill from there. The fabricator installer guys arrived with the soapstone when Brent was out, and before they got started, I heard them talking about the sink. Turned out to have two major cracks in it. So no countertops. I told them I really needed to wait for Brent to get back so he could tell me what to do, and in that time, they discovered that the swanky Eurostyle faucet wouldn't fit in the alotted space because the single handle lever goes forward and backward for cold and hot. No room in the back.

So they had to call the project manager and everybody else. it's a good thing I'm on vacation, since we spent the next hour and a half discussing it. I told them even if we could get a different sink (out of the question, since the fabricators cut the slabs based on that model), it wasn't a go for me because that was the first thing I picked out and built everything else around. But I have had these fixtures for months now, and I told them all I was really pissed that I was going to have go find and wait for a new faucet because somewhere along the line, someone didn't do their job. I think the fabricators cracked the sink, since they took it for measuring and I guess all that bumping around didn't do it any favors, but there's no way to tell. I was just angry. At best, I might get the countertops by end of week, but at this point, I'm not holding my breath.

And that means no plumbers till next week, or tile guy, or whatever... I knew it was too good to be true that I'd have it finished by my birthday. I went out today and when i came home it looked like Brent had been here at some point with the new sink. Otherwise nothing is happening. We decided to put the faucet in sideways. It's not ideal, and it doesn't look nearly as cool and swanky, but at least I don't have to wait another couple weeks for a special order faucet or whatever.

I thought Heroes might make up for the disappointment and frustration. Boy, was I wrong. I hate shows that are predicated on people being stupid. Notice I said people being stupid, not occasionally doing something stupid. Because there is a big difference between people making occasional huge to minor blunders in favor of plot development (Buffy, for example), and people habitually acting and thinking stupid. And everything in Heroes lately is happening because of the latter. Last year, I wrote about the difficulty of dramatic irony in the show in this post, and it feels even more relevant to me now, because we're not simply having to deal with knowing what is happening that other characters don't, we're also having to watch this all being done by stupid people being stupid over and over and over and none of them ever learning from their mistakes. I don't know if I can watch this show anymore after this "season" wrap-up, whenever the writers' strike ends. I don't know if Tim Kring really does see what's wrong, or if it was too late for him to fix things, or what, but... I'm sorry. My tolerance for stupid people is already quite low, and this borders on... humiliation. People should be humiliated to be this cretinous. I'm humiliated for them.

And I was disappointed this weekend by BSG: Razor. I can't even necessarily say why. I just found it really unsatisfactory and that Sci-Fi thinks that's enough to tide fans over until their absurd restart date of April 2008... sorry, asshats, ya lost me. I may have to get my Roslin and Adama fixes from fanfic if this keeps up.
gwyn: (Default)
I just posted a new Battlestar Galactica vid, this one for a character I don't even like because of all the terrible suffering he's responsible for: Gaius Baltar. It's kind of freeing in a way to vid someone you despise, because to tell a story, you have to learn to love the characters you're telling about; you see different things in them than just fannish objects of affection. And it forced me to see all these things about Baltar I'd never really seen before.

Digging in the Dirt
Artist: Peter Gabriel
File: Divx avi, 37MB (I recommend VLC media player, which you can find a link for at the site)
Dr. Gaius Baltar, scientist, narcissist, wackjob: It really is all about him.

Thanks for [ profile] feochadn for the halftime beta; I hope the rest of it lives up to your standards.
gwyn: (chief tyrol infinitemonkeys)
I have so many things I want to say about Battlestar Galactica, the past few eps, but especially last night's, but no real time to do it. Maybe later. It would be nice to get back to reviewing things again. I kind of miss that.

But in the meantime, this is what I thought about last night, especially in regards to Laura Roslin, frequently pushing aside mercy herself in her resolve to lead people and rid them of the cylon threat. It's Portia's speech in The Merchant of Venice, one of the best examinations of the toll revenge and cruelty and survival take on the human soul.

The quality of mercy is not strain’d,

It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven

Upon the place beneath: it is twice bless’d;

It blesseth him that gives and him that takes:

’Tis mightiest in the mightiest; it becomes

The throned monarch better than his crown;

His sceptre shows the force of temporal power,

The attribute to awe and majesty,

Wherein doth sit the dread and fear of kings;
But mercy is above this sceptred sway,

It is enthroned in the hearts of kings,

It is an attribute to God himself,

And earthly power doth then show likest God’s
When mercy seasons justice.

She knows this thing Tom Zarek, and the "tribunal," don't: That it's mightiest in the mighty. It's also something the cylons will never really understand, even when they try.
gwyn: (chief tyrol infinitemonkeys)
This was the vid I showed at the VVC premieres show. Sorry for yet another ginormous file, but it's a looong song that I cut as much as I humanly could.

Fandom: Battlestar Galactica, Laura-centric
Artist: Grey Eye Glances
File: Divx avi, 42.4MB (as always, VLC player recommended, there's a link at my site)
How do you sustain hope in others in the face of unimaginable loss, when you're in danger of losing hope yourself?

My site is password protected but I am so tired right now I can't possibly hope to answer PW requests (assuming there are any!), so for a little while at least, this is what you'll need when you click the link above:
user: gwyn
PW: cymru

So many thanks to [ profile] laurashapiro, who made this way, way better than it would have been. She really saved my butt when I needed a beta, and I'm incredibly grateful for her keen insights. In fact, I took all her suggestions except two and one of those was just because I am not skilled enough at the tech to get it to not look funny when I did what she suggested.
gwyn: (yay!)
Many happy returns and piles of gay pants to [personal profile] tzikeh, who has given us all so much joy with... well, gay pants, and Ritzes and toads, and icons and cons, and all manner of good stuff. I hope you have a wonderful birthday. Don't forget -- our fandom is middle-aged!

Elsewhere, [personal profile] minim_calibre has an interesting post about communication in the age of LJ with an unusual spin.

Would anyone be interested in betaing a Laura Roslin-centric character study vid? I'm not quite finished noodling with it, but I'd like to get more than my usual one opinion, as I'm feeling very concerned about this. I'm not asking for someone who'd just want to see it first -- I want someone to answer a couple of important questions for me, so there's thinky involved. I'm happy with much of it, and I'm not interested in a full on clip by clip dissection at this point, but if there are parts that don't work, I'd like to know why the beta thinks so. (Why do I not have a Roslin or Adama icon? I need to fix this, stat.)

And lastly, does anyone have, or know of someone who has, decent Witchblade source of the entire series? I have the movie on tape, and I taped all of first season for [personal profile] feochadn, but my access to second season disappeared a while ago, and I don't even know how much of first season Jo has around. I have this vid just burning a hole in my brain now for months and months, and I really want to make this, but am sourceless for much of what I need to do. I will of course pay postage, do whatever, if you have access.
gwyn: (kirk iconziconz)
I'm sorry I haven't posted much of anything lately except stupid stuff. No usage posts in ages, no movies, no reviews, no nothin' except mostly vids. I am just really struggling. Someone actually said to me that now that the date of my sister's death was past, I should be on a better track. Yeah. That actually makes it all better. I've been thinking a lot lately about things, and it finally hit me, the one thing I was never able to explain to people, who think this is just about grief or loss and that you get over it with time -- that it's PTSD, and that goes away a lot harder, if ever. I don't think most people know what it's like to watch someone die in especially gruesome circumstances, let alone someone who is literally part of you, shares your DNA and was born with you. So, yeah, it's kind of lingering trauma. But I never really get the chance to explain that to people.

Making things worse, weirdly, are my TV shows. See, I've always liked dark and dramatic and gloomy and people die and you can't expect that everything will come up roses. I mean, I live for that kind of thing in a lot of ways. But since sis_r died, I've found my ability to suck that up is declining to a point where I'm going to be forced to stop watching the stuff I love in favor of crap like SGA or the awful procedurals because the lead characters never die and you don't get confronted by reminders of what you've been through in your own life over and over. Thank god for Numb3rs or I might have accidentally downed that whole bottle of Atavan by now. Between the finale of BSG and the past two eps of 24, I'm about ready to throw in the towel. I know they're just shows, but they hurt. I'm invested in these people overcoming adversity, but the relentless death and sacrifice and loss and suffering is just getting under my skin in a pernicious way that I'm not sure I can keep coming back for. That they are both excellently written and acted works makes it even harder. If they were cheestastic and predictable, it might be a bit easier. I have no idea what to expect when Veronica Mars finally returns, but I'm scared of the possibilities.

Thoughts on BSG and the finale of S2 )

And 24 is only making it worse )

I'm sure people who haven't been dealing with their own losses probably think I'm nuts. To be this uptight about mere characters is... sure, I know, silly. But they represent something for me, a world where people's problems are worse than my own, but where they have the possibility of righting the very things I could never fix in my own life. Humanity has to have some hope that they can survive the terrible things thrown at them by evil, the superagents of CTU have to be able to hurt the bad guys and save the good guys. I couldn't help my mom or my sister or my friends. I couldn't save their lives or ease their suffering. And to have to watch people who can't rise above those same inabilities, week after week, watching them go through much of what I've felt and endured recently, just feels like rubbing salt in wounds. I know I'm being a doof, but... I'm a tired, emotionally bruised doof who's going to have to start filtering her entertainments for the first time ever.
gwyn: (keith mars infinitemonkeys)
I don't normally talk about articles we publish or the magazine here, but I proofread a story yesterday that I think everyone interested in the arguments for/against staying in Iraq should read. A lot of times, I shake my head at the crap we publish, but the past few weeks I've been proud of the range of topics and the questions people ask in their pieces, and this one really blew me away in how carefully he stays away from an opinion on the overarching issue, while focusing his piece on one specific problem. It's a psychologist's take on The Sunk-Cost Fallacy of Bush's latest idiotic statement on Iraq.


I have been remiss in my birthday greetings this week: I wish to rain felicitations down on the wonderful [ profile] monanotlisa, [ profile] nandibble, and [ profile] justacat.


Three really different TV shows, one connecting theme: family. Read at your own risk because I don't care about spoilers if you haven't watched Veronica Mars, Numb3rs, or Battlestar Galactica )

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