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Has there ever been a better line in a pop song that that line from Psycho Killer by the Talking Heads? I don't think so. Right now, it echoes so much of my feelings in a way that makes me wince. I think I need to take a serious break from LJ, from parts of my life. Just step back a little bit.
I've been feeling worse and worse lately, very alone and lonely, and this past weekend made me acutely aware of how much I'm filling in the lack of real worth in my life with this. Between the Twinless Twins meeting and a bunch of other stuff, I just feel very isolated, lonely, worthless, and abandoned. And reading LJ doesn't make it better; it seems to emphasize all the things that feel wrong lately, rather than help them. When it feels like most of your world is disappointing or hurting you, rejecting you, you have to find another world that won't do that to you, or figure out how to repair the one you've got.
LJ is like that talking and not saying anything, sometimes. You can say so much and yet mean very little. And I should spend some time now on the things I need to -- continuing my efforts in getting work, doing the things that need to be done that I've put off for a while, maybe even trying to find a way to make new friends (that is the hardest of all).
I'm still available on e-mail and I will try to pop into chat (I'm on the LJ chat Jabber thing, and AIM) when I can, although sometimes I'm more miss than hit on that.
I've been feeling worse and worse lately, very alone and lonely, and this past weekend made me acutely aware of how much I'm filling in the lack of real worth in my life with this. Between the Twinless Twins meeting and a bunch of other stuff, I just feel very isolated, lonely, worthless, and abandoned. And reading LJ doesn't make it better; it seems to emphasize all the things that feel wrong lately, rather than help them. When it feels like most of your world is disappointing or hurting you, rejecting you, you have to find another world that won't do that to you, or figure out how to repair the one you've got.
LJ is like that talking and not saying anything, sometimes. You can say so much and yet mean very little. And I should spend some time now on the things I need to -- continuing my efforts in getting work, doing the things that need to be done that I've put off for a while, maybe even trying to find a way to make new friends (that is the hardest of all).
I'm still available on e-mail and I will try to pop into chat (I'm on the LJ chat Jabber thing, and AIM) when I can, although sometimes I'm more miss than hit on that.
