Still alive (sort of)
May. 8th, 2010 11:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwynThank you so much to the anonymouse who gave me DW points -- it came right when my subscription expired, so I was able to do a paid one for six months for only a few more bucks. I really appreciate it and wish I knew who you were so I could really thank you. I 3> you, anonymouse!
I constantly think about posting (about, oh, everything -- how the teefs are going, how the class is going, what I think of the new Who, every other show on tv that I seem to watch, my boundless adoration of Justified, my growing awe at Fringe every week, rants about shows that I think are made of fail, the cats, the hideous state of my garden, my lame attempts at learning jewelry making) but then I don't want to sit and type, so I never do. Or I spend too much time in front of the computer for other things and don't want to add to my time sitting in this horrid chair.
One reason I spend too much time in said chair is that I'm frantically trying to finish my vid for Club Vivid. The deadline extension was the best thing ever but it's still just plodding along, mocking me. The past two days have finally been lovely here (for some reason, we had spring in winter, and now we've had winter in spring) but am I trying to catch up with the miserable garden state? No, I am inside, toiling over clips. This vid should not be hard! But lately all vids are. I have lost my vidding mojo. No longer can Seah and Margie call me a freakish overachiever. I can't seem to do anything unless I'm struggling to meet a show deadline. Gah. Where does vidding mojo go? Is it retrievable?
I constantly think about posting (about, oh, everything -- how the teefs are going, how the class is going, what I think of the new Who, every other show on tv that I seem to watch, my boundless adoration of Justified, my growing awe at Fringe every week, rants about shows that I think are made of fail, the cats, the hideous state of my garden, my lame attempts at learning jewelry making) but then I don't want to sit and type, so I never do. Or I spend too much time in front of the computer for other things and don't want to add to my time sitting in this horrid chair.
One reason I spend too much time in said chair is that I'm frantically trying to finish my vid for Club Vivid. The deadline extension was the best thing ever but it's still just plodding along, mocking me. The past two days have finally been lovely here (for some reason, we had spring in winter, and now we've had winter in spring) but am I trying to catch up with the miserable garden state? No, I am inside, toiling over clips. This vid should not be hard! But lately all vids are. I have lost my vidding mojo. No longer can Seah and Margie call me a freakish overachiever. I can't seem to do anything unless I'm struggling to meet a show deadline. Gah. Where does vidding mojo go? Is it retrievable?
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Date: 2010-05-09 04:23 pm (UTC)If you figure that out, let me know. :(
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Date: 2010-05-09 12:31 pm (UTC)In my experience, it ebbs and flows, depending entirely on past viddage feedback (if there even is any) and/or easy access to vast amounts of chocolate and vodka.
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Date: 2010-05-09 01:12 pm (UTC)I don't know and I REALLY HOPE SO. *stares at timeline in dismay*
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Date: 2010-05-12 07:41 pm (UTC)