I know I won't be leaving here with you

[gwyn]

Escapade was much fun this year, though as with last year, stupid cancer fatigue put a damper on a lot of things. The best panels were the one for The Pitt and Murderbot, though I would have enjoyed the Murderbot panel more if a) it hadn't been at nine a.m. on Saturday morning and b) hadn't been dominated by one really obnoxious person. The moderator did a yeoman's job trying to rein her in (seriously, I really admired her skills at hardassery), but I had really hoped to talk about Gurathin in the show and the final episode, how SecUnit's memories might have changed him, etc., but that didn't really happen. And when I started talking about him, in typical fannish fashion, someone immediately countered and diminished my comment with how he wasn't what they thought he should be from the books and yadda yadda, so I never really got to make my point. Maybe next year?

But it was good to see people, even if I didn't get all the time I wanted to glom on some folks (par_avion, I'm lookin' at you). Still, there were a few wonderful surprises where some folks I adore and haven't seen in years came to the con, because their fannish brains had been kickstarted by Heated Rivalry. I am so not into that show but the fact that it brought them back out into fandom makes me feel more warmly towards it.

I woke up Sunday morning to news that LAX was in chaos because the Nazis in the government (and I use that term loosely) had decided to shut down TSA precheck and global entry, but after a while that got walked back and by the time I got to the airport, things had settled down a bit and it was fairly quiet. Then the flights started getting canceled by the East Coast blizzard (poor par, she was stuck at the hotel till Wednesday night), and the Mexico flights were stopping because it seemed like half of Mexico was on fire, and it made for a really surreal experience. And now today I woke up to the news about Iran and I just...I really often wish that this fucking cancer would just take me out. This world is just so fucking horrible, and I feel so utterly helpless to do even the tiniest thing about it.

I mean, I have signed up for Fandom Trumps Hate (fth2026offerings) (god i hate that fucker so much that i can't even stand to use a perfectly good verb because it's saying his name), but if I get even a bid over my $10 minimum, I'll be shocked. I've done auctions before, but I don't feel like I make much of a contribution, and I know throwing money at some of these horrors are at least some small way of helping, but I'm just not someone who'll generate that kind of money and I can't make many donations of my own.

Still, I'll hope that maybe a friend will feel sorry for me and buy me ;-D . But I have to admit, the basics of this auction confuse me--listings are on DW here, but a lot takes place on Tumblr, and I'm confused about how to publicize my listing. I was able to reblog the auction roundup listing for The Pitt today, but I don't know how one goes about promoting their own listing. Has anyone done FTH before and would be willing to give me some advice? There's only a couple days for browsing, so I would love to see if I could at least generate some attention if someone wants a fic for Marvel, The Pitt, or Fast Color (hah). I feel like in the past, I've seen people's contributor listings on tumblr, but I just don't know how that goes. Ugh, I'm so out of touch.

I broke my toe on my left foot *again* this morning. My third and fourth toes are so fucked up now. I know there's not much to do about it but tape them and take pain relievers, but jesus your toes really make a difference in walking. And I'm seeing a new sports medicine doc about my fucked-up knee, so now we'll have to see how it might affect my walking even more (I have an MRI this week). So much excitement, but as I said to a friend, at least it's not about the cancer, lol. I'm such a fucking klutz. I think I should probably get some of that bubble wrap with the really big bubbles, and put it around the legs of my bed--it won't solve everything, but those legs have definitely contributed to a few of the breaks. This time, I heard a little snap sound!

Comments

[mackiemesser]

I have broken toes on my bed frame before - solidarity in ouch-ery!

I'm glad you had a good time at the con. :)

Yeah, it is not a great time in the world right now...

[gwyn]

I really do need to put something around the bed, I think--it's not the only place I've broken these toes on, but it's definitely the frequent offender!

[mackiemesser]

Someone needs to speak to the manager about all these vicious, anti-toe beds!

[muccamukk]

Oh jeez. I'm sorry about your toes. Walking on broken ones really sucks.

[gwyn]

Yeah, and the funny thing is I'm getting an MRI for my messed up knee on Friday, and this is making my knee worse, so I'll have to explain that to the sports medicine guy. It's more than a bit embarrassing!

[aurumcalendula]

*hugs*

I'm glad you had a good time at Escapade!

[amalthia]

I missed the Murderbot panel this year due the time it was scheduled, having said that after hearing about your experience, and if it's the same person I'm thinking of, I would have left the panel once they've arrived. I've yet to attend a panel where they didn't ramble on forever and go off topic. You have to have a really good moderator to stop this and someone willing to interrupt. When this person arrives at a panel I leave. It's just too frustrating to attend the panel once they arrive.

[gwyn]

Yeah, I mean, I know there are a lot of non-neurotypical people in fandom, but this person is just loud and intense and is impossible to shut up. Her hand was up constantly throughout the panel and it was just such a battle for the moderator to have to make sure others got called on, which is really unfair to the poor person who's moderating. But fortunately we don't share a ton of fandoms, so that was one of the few panels they were in.

[amalthia]

I hope your toes recover quickly!

[devilc]

Yeah, the Murderbot Panel.

And it was good to see you even if we didn't talk much. I came down with a f'ing cold on Sunday, so ...

[gwyn]

Oh man I'm sorry you got con crud! It was great to see your face, even if we didn't have much time to talk. Hopefully I'll be in decent enough shape for next year, and maybe we can carve out some time.

[przed]

I'm glad you had fun at Escapade! (I'd have loved to go and see you and everyone else, but I won't be crossing the border for the foreseeable future. I hate that the orange clown is messing up my fannish fun.)

Sending healing thoughts on the broken toe. Broken toes are the worst, and there really isn't anything you can do except tape them and stay off them as much as possible until the little bastards heal.

[gwyn]

Believe me, I totally understand why you won't be crossing the border. I would love love love to see you again, but it's so unsafe here.

[ratcreature]

i can't even stand to use a perfectly good verb

I hate that Donald now makes me think of him instead of my favorite Disney character Donald Duck first... Thankfully Donald Duck will outlive him.

[gwyn]

There are so many things wrong with that piece of shit and his imbecilic followers, but it really does just stick in your craw, doesn't it, when he taints something you love with his mere name. (My dad's name was Donald, and now I constantly have to remind myself that there are good people with that name...)