The correlation of salvation and love

[gwyn]

Kind of mired in the usual post-Vividcon sense of worthlessness and failure, watching the vids sink into the black holes like they usually do. I kinda thought this year I might have made a couple vids that more than a few people would like, but not so much. Though the auction vid was the one I worried over most at the beginning, because you always want that to be what the person who paid for it likes, and I was so lucky that killa loved the vid I made for her. And it's cool that some people were intrigued by the visuals and want to seek the movie out.

It was really, really hard to come home to the house without Olive here. She usually ran away from me as fast as she could, trying to avoid being squished and kissed, and get out of the house as I struggled with my luggage, and it made me pretty weepy to not have her here. But Blues was exceptionally lovey-dovey from being alone so long, and that was a bonus. He loves being visited when I'm gone, but no one's as big a deal as I am, apparently.

I did have a great time with the wonderful killabeez sightseeing in Chicago and staying at a super posh hotel, and meeting up with my darling devilpiglet for dinner and crying crystalline tears over Bucky and Steve. We took a river tour focused on architecture, and that so did not disappoint. We had awesome pancakes, too, at a place I can't remember the name of, and dinner at a swell place that seemed kind of like an old speakeasy or something. I really needed the mini-vacation and it helped keep my mind off Olive a bit.

There were a couple of really amazing things that happened while I was at the con, though, that made me feel better about the vid situation. The first was that I got a surprise notification that I was listed as a co-author for a podfic of one of my stories, that I kind of love but that has never had much readership at all, Opportunities in Freelance. It was only the second time I've ever had a podfuc of a work, and I squeed so hard I think I broke myself.

[podfic] Opportunities in Freelance (41 words) by gwyneth rhys, reena_jenkins

And then, a couple days later, I got a notice that reena had also podficced Your 21st-Century Boy. I am so thrilled that someone would want to do that, and if you are at all inclined toward podfic, give them a listen, they are both lots of fun and the cover art, especially for Opportunities in Freelance, is so delightful.

[podfic] Your 21st-Century Boy (47 words) by gwyneth rhys, reena_jenkins


And then the thing that knocked me over--a few weeks ago, auslandischwasser (thanks! fixed!) made a fanmix for the playlist that Steve listens to while running, which Sam made for him, in Things We Lost in the War. She had written to me about the story back when I posted it, and we'd got to talking about what Sam might have put on that playlist, and so Sweatin' with the Oldies was just such a joy to see. I highly recommend it, I think it really captures Steve and Bucky and Steve's mindset in the beginning of the story! (And it's both our headcanons that Sam would be a Rihanna fan.) I'd never really inspired anyone to do anything, so having a fanmix inspired by a fic was just such a thrill.

I never expected that she'd make a second one inspired by the same fic. But I got the email when I was at the con and feeling pretty down, and it just. Flail. Major Kermit arms flail. I listened to all of it on the plane, and I was in tears after I'd finished. It's really truly Things We Lost in the War in musical form. I can't figure out how to link with the cover art, but you can find my reblog of the Sing Me to Sleep fanmix here and there's a note about the track listing--one of the songs isn't available on the Spotify version. If you love Steve and Bucky, give it a listen because it's just gorgeous and perfect and wonderful and I can't believe something I did inspired something so lovely.

So yeah, those things definitely helped with the negative VVC ions. I'm even signed up now for Spotify and 8tracks.

Comments

[dine]

I'm glad you enjoyed VVC, and some good stuff happened to soften the post-con blues - I'm not always able to listen to podfic at work, but I love Your 21st-Century Boy and look forward to listening to it!

also - here's the way I code usernames for DW:
< user name="dine" site="livejournal.com" > - replacing my name with who you want to link to - and then plug in the appropriate site where the above says livejournal.com (archiveofourown.org; tumblr.com, etc.) and close the brackets, of course

[ratcreature]

You actually don't even need the quotes or the .com with sites dw supports for this, just< user name=auslandischwasser site=tumblr > in pointy brackets without the spaces already works when I do it: auslandischwasser.

[dine]

oh, that's cool to know! thanks for the tip :)

[sholio]

Weird thing about the vids: unless you backdated them, I don't think they came up on my reading page. I read it every day, and I've been watching all the VVC vids that people post or rec (well, the ones that are for fandom/song combinations that look appealing, anyway, or by vidders I like!) and I haven't seen ANY of these. How odd! But maybe that's why you didn't get more comments -- because people aren't seeing them for some reason?

Anyway, I'm very much looking forward to watching them. :)

[gwyn]

It looks like the date updating that I did for the Club Vivid one didn't save, but that was only dated Aug. 3 when I originally set the post up, and the others are dated close to when they premiered. It's not really a date thing, they just generally don't get much traction, especially here. Tumblr seems to be where most of the vid action happens, at least for most people, these days. Although I did get a hilarious comment on my Miami Vice vid recently on YT, which is a place I never get comments--from an actor in one of the episodes. I have to post about that soon, because it is just so fucking funny.

[sholio]

Fair enough! I just figured I'd mention it because I check my DW rlist a few times a day and, for whatever reason, none of these seem to have appeared as "new" posts at the top of it. I'd never have known about them at all if you hadn't made another post calling attention to them. But the problem may be on my end. (Or possibly between keyboard and chair. XD)

That's really neat about the Miami Vice comment! :D

ETA: And also, apologies, in retrospect, if the above comment seemed unsympathetic. I think it was mostly an attempt to explain why *I* hadn't been commenting, since I hadn't seen them! But I'm sorry you're in post-con crash right now. *hugs*

[gwyn]

Oh, no, I didn't take it that way! I can't figure it out--I set up the two posts for the ladies of Marvel and Peggy Carter vids, before I left, and when I made the vids live, I changed the date. One of them didn't take, but clearly people haven't found the posts on their read pages. I mean, I don't really know to do anything other than change the date and repost. But I got one comment the day after I posted the Peggy vid, so I assumed it must have been showing up on at least one person's dash. Who knows? It's a mystery to me! And I think I just do not have the spoons to figure it out.

The Miami Vice comment is just so funny. I have to write meta about it, because I think it's a perfect example of mundanes interacting with fannish texts that are just not meant for them, and celebs especially interacting with those texts and not understanding how they are meant/who they're meant for. I had to take Blues kitty to the vet urgently this afternoon, and he seems to be pretty ill at least for now, so now my spoons are pretty much all used up, but when I get a few more in the drawer, I will write it up.

BTW, I took along some comfort fic for the trip and I enjoyed rereading the one where Bucky is surprised to find himself a friend of all the Avengers. Aahhh. Just what I needed.

[frayadjacent]

I know I haven't commented, but you and Olive have been in my thoughts quite a bit these last few weeks. I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine how awful that must be for you. Hugs if you want them.

Also, I haven't watched any VVC vids yet, but I've read great things about yours and look forward to watching them!

[gwyn]

Thank you--yeah, it's definitely been a rough time. And then Blues got so sick yesterday I had to rush him to the vet…the cats are definitely making life…interesting.

[amalthia]

Hi,

I'm still catching up on watching the vids. I look forward to seeing your vids!