Breather

Sep. 3rd, 2003 08:16 pm
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I think... I think I need to go now.

It's been... fun?

Yes, sometimes. Not so much lately. Today v., v. bad.

I'll check in if something happens. And comment to my friends (assuming, of course, I still have any), because I have a hard time keeping the mouth shut.

Date: 2003-09-03 08:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] leela-cat.livejournal.com
Please do continue to comment. Or maybe friends lock stuff?

This is very sad news to me. I haven't had a lot of time to reply or comment lately, but I always enjoy reading what you have to say.

Date: 2003-09-03 08:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] batdina.livejournal.com
I shall miss you.

Date: 2003-09-03 08:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] caille.livejournal.com
Don't go away forever, gwyn. Please. Take a break. Do what you have to do. But I'm convinced that we, collectively, can make this thing work without destroying each other.

::hugs::

Date: 2003-09-03 09:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sweet-ali.livejournal.com
You know how i feel, darlin'. You keep in contact with me. I'm your beta-mom and that's that.

But really, take a step back and ignore the kerfuffles that are making this so un-fun for you. I know you don't only embrace the fanfic, you embrace the fandom and the fandoms are crushing you on many ends right now, and i do understand a breather. But please, don't disappear. We all love your thoughts too much!

::grumbles about damn fandom driving good fans away::

Date: 2003-09-04 08:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gwyn-r.livejournal.com
Thank you, sweetie.

It's not really fandom per se, just to put your mind at ease. I mean, the fighting of the past few weeks has been pretty bad and depressing as hell, but I'm a vet of the early days of Usenet, and this kind of flame war crap (I can't even dignify some of the fighting going on with kerfuffle, because that implies a light airiness these don't have -- these are flames, pure and simple) isn't enough to drive me away. It's more personal than that. But I hope I can redirect my energies and give you some beta work. ;-)

And maybe when Angel picks up, so will I.

Date: 2003-09-03 09:38 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] elz.livejournal.com
So sorry to hear that. I hope the winds shift for the better in the near future and you feel comfortable coming back again. In the meantime, you'll be missed.

Date: 2003-09-03 10:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] scarlettfish.livejournal.com
Don't disappear. You can always friends lock posts. It'll be a huge shame if this latest bit of insanity causes another person to withdraw from fandom. We'll miss you if you do.

Date: 2003-09-03 10:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lordshiva.livejournal.com
baby, what's up? I don't get it? Whose been messing with my girl:-)?

I had a paranoid attack the other night, that I'd been blacklisted somehow on LJ and so was missing all the important arguments. and then I thought - fuck, thank god for that.

But I did get really paranoid, that some friends (first firends in the fandom I ever made) had quietly unfriended me and I hadn't even realized because I'm so out of the LJ loop.

I will miss you, so you have to remember to actually respond to me when I send a personal email, okay?

Date: 2003-09-04 08:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gwyn-r.livejournal.com
I know -- it's so hard to keep track of the fights right now, it makes you wonder which camp you might be in, and who you'd be pissing off, and what's being said! It'd be funny if it weren't so weird.

A lot of it is the fighting; most of it is personal. I will always respond to you -- you're my fic goddess, and my writing goddess!

Date: 2003-09-03 10:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] onetwomany.livejournal.com
Don't go! I'll miss you terribly if you do!

And, as you cna see, you certainly still have friends :)

Date: 2003-09-04 01:13 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] monanotlisa.livejournal.com
Oh Gwyneth, what's wrong?
What has been said? Or done? Can I do anything about it? ::points to icon::
Don't leave us, please. (Gee, do I sound needy? This isn't about me.) But honestly...you shouldn't let anyone mess with you like that-- don't be driven away. If you really felt like this for a long time, then, of course, don't keep burdening yourself, but if it's mainly external force...
It would be such a loss to fandom, and I cannot even begin to imagine how many people would miss you. Of course, as the others have suggested, you may want to lock your posts and retreat from whoever and whatever is bugging you. However, I know I'm speaking for a lot of people when I ask you to keep sharing your thoughts and ideas...even if some might not like it, the protection of minorities doesn't extend that far. & ;-) ::hugs::

Date: 2003-09-04 08:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gwyn-r.livejournal.com
Thank you, hon. It's mostly personal, not the fandom at large. I just don't know which way to go, and yesterday had some things that really kind of got to the pain point, so that with all the fighting... that feeling of being paralyzed and afraid and miserable makes me realize a holiday is in order. And hopefully let me focus on the writing and vidding.

I wish the friends locking was viable -- but it's the "friends" where the problem occurs. Oh, the irony. ;-) So I'm just going to be more careful where I go, what I say, and step back a bit.

Date: 2003-09-04 04:25 pm (UTC)
ext_1771: Joe Flanigan looking A-Dorable. (I have a a dream)
From: [identity profile] monanotlisa.livejournal.com
It's mostly personal, not the fandom at large.
I wish the friends locking was viable -- but it's the "friends" where the problem occurs. Oh, the irony. ;-)


Ggr. Argh. Indeed. Alanis would add it to her examples.
Really sorry. More and more, I'm afraid [livejournal.com profile] mousehounde was right when she shook her virtual head and told me fandom was exactly like High School...

I just don't know which way to go, and yesterday had some things that really kind of got to the pain point,

::offers you virtual Aspirin EXXXXXtra Strength:: & :-(

so that with all the fighting... that feeling of being paralyzed and afraid and miserable

Dear...definitely the point where you have to stop and start to take care of yourself, alright.

makes me realize a holiday is in order. And hopefully let me focus on the writing and vidding.

I see where you're coming from...and where you're going, mentally/spiritually, at least: a nice, quiet, pleasant, and most of all, peaceful place.

You know what saddens me most, though? That it's not one of the agitators and mindless drones out there retreating but *you*, best example of a writer striving to give thoughtful and balanced presentations. Sure, sometimes, we all go overboard. But I hate to see an insightful and original yet pacifist essayist like you leave.

But of cours, do relax and take a breather. I still hope things will calm down-- see my icon recalling that post (http://www.livejournal.com/users/monanotlisa/35701.html) about 5.3 kerfuffles back...

No no no!

Date: 2003-09-04 02:46 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] phantomas.livejournal.com
Don't leave and please - whatever is happening, i have no idea - just ignore it! It happens all the time, in every fandom, like a tide, it flows back and forth.
Stay with us!!!

Date: 2003-09-04 02:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] superplin.livejournal.com
I get the need/desire to step back, definitely. Especially of late.
I'll be very sad if you disappear entirely, though. I love your posts, whether they're about shows I'll never see or your views on character dynamics or what you muse about while eating cherries on your porch.
Remember: if the sane among us get driven away, the fandom terrorists win. ;)

The only way I've found to stay sane (well, relatively speaking) is to look around just enough to pick out the good stuff--and there still is good stuff out there, honestly--and ignore the strident voices and general badness.
Basically, I've mostly stayed in the pillow fort I built for myself near the end of the series, and it's serving me pretty well.
(Plenty of room here for more--plus, hot chocolate! Perugina hot chocolate, even.)


Noooooo!

Date: 2003-09-04 03:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] callherblondie.livejournal.com
LJ and Buffy fandom is going crazy right now so I totally understand why you need to step back from it all. I will miss your thought-provoking posts though. I always read them and enjoy them even though I'm awful at commenting since most of the time my reaction is GUH...what she said...I wanna be all smart and good with the words like that. =) Hope to see you back soon.

Date: 2003-09-04 04:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kassrachel.livejournal.com
Step back if it makes you feel calmer or saner, but please, don't vanish altogether if you can help it. I'm only just starting to get to know you, but I like you an awful lot, and I enjoy your posts. Here's hoping whatever's currently making you unhappy about fandom can recede into the background soon. :-)

Date: 2003-09-04 05:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ex-just-kumi863.livejournal.com
Please don't let the squabbling get you down. Take a step back and a breath but please come back to us. Your post are amazingly insightful, well written, and extremely witty. It would be a loss to everyone if you walked away.

I've only been doing LJ for a month now and I know I was shocked to see the behind the scenes stuff. But I'm trying really hard to follow the Wizard of Oz's advice... Ignore the man behind the curtain.

Date: 2003-09-04 06:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] paratti.livejournal.com
You have to do what's best fot you, Gwyn, but you'll be missed.

Date: 2003-09-04 06:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chrisjournal.livejournal.com
Oh no...oh no!

Not another of the sane ones jumping ship...

You will be *missed*. Your posts are always, always enlightening, your fic among the best, and though I'm not so much a vid person, I'll be they are amazing, too.

Date: 2003-09-04 07:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] laurashalo.livejournal.com
I know I haven't commented much on your journal, but I always worry a bit that people I've recently friended will wonder who the heck I am and why I'm commenting. I justed wanted you to know that I enjoy your journal and think you are a lovely person. I hope you don't stay away long.

Date: 2003-09-04 09:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] namastenancy.livejournal.com
Dear dear Gwyn ...don't let the bastards (or life) get you down. They ain't worth it. Don't doubt your worth, your creativity, your wisdom or how much it's appreciated. If you are walking throught the valley of the shadow, know that all of us are saying our prayers to whatever God or Goddess to guide and protect you!

namaste! SF Nancy

Date: 2003-09-07 05:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] umbo.livejournal.com
Late to this what with being gone myself, but just wanted to say I'll miss you, and I hope you'll be back soon, and *hugs*

Date: 2003-09-08 03:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dragolyn.livejournal.com
Oh Gwyn... I'm late to seeing this, sorry for that (been out of town) but I hope things are better by now and that your breather is helping you- and that you come back!

Breathe

Date: 2003-09-09 06:33 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] deejay.livejournal.com
Of course you have friends, silly. They are strewn hither and yon (and other places off the map)... =}

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