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Out of sync
Oct. 9th, 2003 10:16 amI feel a bit out of step writing this today. It seems like everyone has already weighed in on their Angel thoughts by the time I get to writing it up, and so I’m out step time-wise. And I’m not even sure the microphone is on these days; in my ‘noided out little world I figured that people probably filtered me out long ago due to my blah blah blah opinions, or did during my little hiatus. And mostly I feel out of step because my feelings about the show and the characters don’t seem to mesh with so many others’ that I read.
See, I’m actually pretty happy. In my perfect world, no, Spike wouldn’t have joined the cast of Angel, especially this way, since the loss of the Spuffy ideal is significant for me. I realize that makes me highly mockable, and I’ve certainly read enough vituperative comments from others about how many of us who liked Spike and Buffy together are refusing to move on or get over it or whatever (well, no, not refusing, it’s just where I liked the story best and I still feel like there are stories to be told). But overall, I mostly feel pretty good, as long as I don’t read my friends or e-mail lists. ;-) Despite what a lot of people think they know about me, I actually don’t enjoy being unhappy with my shows. I want to be happy and enjoy them. Picking them apart and finding fault, or denigrating Joss, or whoever, isn’t fun for me; I watch the stuff I love with a critical faculty, but also a fannish one, intact. I’m having a little cognitive dissonance over Alias and Gilmore Girls this year, because I’m not feeling the happy as much as before, but I’m confident that I’ll get there. And so far, I’m not unhappy with Angel. Are there problems? Well, yeah, but what show doesn’t have them? So I feel out of step writing a review because... well, I’m kinda satisfied. Last week felt unsatisfactory to me because I’m impatient with exposition. This week felt much more gratifying, even if it isn’t necessarily the direction I want it to go. My boyfriends are all back (Spike, Angel, and Wes), something’s different about the show, and the actors seem energized. It’s the only fannish show I have, and I value that right now more than ever.
( Review of Angel episode Just Rewards )
See, I’m actually pretty happy. In my perfect world, no, Spike wouldn’t have joined the cast of Angel, especially this way, since the loss of the Spuffy ideal is significant for me. I realize that makes me highly mockable, and I’ve certainly read enough vituperative comments from others about how many of us who liked Spike and Buffy together are refusing to move on or get over it or whatever (well, no, not refusing, it’s just where I liked the story best and I still feel like there are stories to be told). But overall, I mostly feel pretty good, as long as I don’t read my friends or e-mail lists. ;-) Despite what a lot of people think they know about me, I actually don’t enjoy being unhappy with my shows. I want to be happy and enjoy them. Picking them apart and finding fault, or denigrating Joss, or whoever, isn’t fun for me; I watch the stuff I love with a critical faculty, but also a fannish one, intact. I’m having a little cognitive dissonance over Alias and Gilmore Girls this year, because I’m not feeling the happy as much as before, but I’m confident that I’ll get there. And so far, I’m not unhappy with Angel. Are there problems? Well, yeah, but what show doesn’t have them? So I feel out of step writing a review because... well, I’m kinda satisfied. Last week felt unsatisfactory to me because I’m impatient with exposition. This week felt much more gratifying, even if it isn’t necessarily the direction I want it to go. My boyfriends are all back (Spike, Angel, and Wes), something’s different about the show, and the actors seem energized. It’s the only fannish show I have, and I value that right now more than ever.
( Review of Angel episode Just Rewards )
