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Jul. 5th, 2006 11:47 amYesterday really sucked. I hate Independence day anyhow, because it's really just a holiday for assholes, but yesterday and Monday sucked even harder than normal.
- Monday we were promised a companywide "short" day, except those of us on the copy desk, who ended up having to work a nearly full day while everyone jetted off for *their* holiday and we had to stick around to edit their copy.
- Jo helped me move furniture for the last bit of painting of my living room, and we both have matching awful bruises to prove it. Then my back went out yesterday morning from the work we did.
- As I was painting, Emma was being very cute, and so I reached out to give her a finger rub, and she bit my left index finger. Not a quick nasty bite like usual, this time she grabbed my finger hard and clamped down with her back teeth, sawing off a huge chunk of my finger and puncturing the other side down to the bone with her fang. She wasn't letting go, either, until I howled in pain. It's swollen but I think I doused that nasty pasturella bacteria out as much as possible, but it hurts like utter hell. We have not been on speaking terms since then. She knows what "bad" means and she hid most of the day after I called her a bad kitty.
- Germany lost the semi-final of the World Cup. I don't know why other than pure grudge-holding, but I haven't like Italy since the days of Giorgio Chinaglia. Foo. So, go whoever wins tonight's match.
- I don't know why, but the utter silence over the Life on Mars vid really got to me yesterday. Almost no downloads, one comment... I just am not sure why I have spent another small fortune to renew my online vids site when it seems like no one really cares. I could just as easily learn to use YSI and have the link for a week, then update it when the stray request comes in a year later or whatever. I think it's just really hard because you're faced with comparisons all the time -- you see people on your flist announce a vid and within hours, there is pimpage propogating all over your list, everyone's squeeing and leaving comments, and you get... almost nothing when you do one in the same fandom. It's like a big blinking arrow pointing at you that says "No one's interested" and makes me wonder why I am spending so much to share something people don't want. More and more, it seems that unless I put a vid in a show, it just doesn't seem to get watched. And that makes me believe that I really must be doing a sucktastic job, because, wouldn't people be interested if I didn't suck? I don't know. I honestly don't -- just that I think about it too much, I guess, and I'm too emotional about it right now because I can't write, I seem to be able only to vid right now.
- I was looking out my kitchen window when I noticed there were glass fragments on the window middle sill. It took me a sec to realize that they were inside the window, so I went out and looked, and sure enough, my window is broken. There are these new kids (boys, of course) in the area and they have been doing all kinds of crap to my house and yard when they are running around "playing", and now I wonder if that thump I'd heard earlier in the day was them throwing something at the house. Or it could be a bird, but... man, that would have to be a big bird to do that much damange. So that's going to be a couple hundred dollars I'd been saving to do another beautification project, down the drain. Every time I catch up...
- I hit my head in the exact same spot I've been hitting ever since I started painting the house and now I have a walnut sized bump again, which looks ever so attractive.
- Something is giving me an allergic reaction and making my mouth and lips peel and harden like leather. I'm trying to eliminate stuff -- different lip balms, face creams or cleansers, etc., but I still can't find the culprit. Yesterday I was eating something and realized I was tasting blood, and sure enough, my lips had cracked so bad they were bleeding.
So that is why I am whiny and grumpy and hatey. I am not good company.
- Monday we were promised a companywide "short" day, except those of us on the copy desk, who ended up having to work a nearly full day while everyone jetted off for *their* holiday and we had to stick around to edit their copy.
- Jo helped me move furniture for the last bit of painting of my living room, and we both have matching awful bruises to prove it. Then my back went out yesterday morning from the work we did.
- As I was painting, Emma was being very cute, and so I reached out to give her a finger rub, and she bit my left index finger. Not a quick nasty bite like usual, this time she grabbed my finger hard and clamped down with her back teeth, sawing off a huge chunk of my finger and puncturing the other side down to the bone with her fang. She wasn't letting go, either, until I howled in pain. It's swollen but I think I doused that nasty pasturella bacteria out as much as possible, but it hurts like utter hell. We have not been on speaking terms since then. She knows what "bad" means and she hid most of the day after I called her a bad kitty.
- Germany lost the semi-final of the World Cup. I don't know why other than pure grudge-holding, but I haven't like Italy since the days of Giorgio Chinaglia. Foo. So, go whoever wins tonight's match.
- I don't know why, but the utter silence over the Life on Mars vid really got to me yesterday. Almost no downloads, one comment... I just am not sure why I have spent another small fortune to renew my online vids site when it seems like no one really cares. I could just as easily learn to use YSI and have the link for a week, then update it when the stray request comes in a year later or whatever. I think it's just really hard because you're faced with comparisons all the time -- you see people on your flist announce a vid and within hours, there is pimpage propogating all over your list, everyone's squeeing and leaving comments, and you get... almost nothing when you do one in the same fandom. It's like a big blinking arrow pointing at you that says "No one's interested" and makes me wonder why I am spending so much to share something people don't want. More and more, it seems that unless I put a vid in a show, it just doesn't seem to get watched. And that makes me believe that I really must be doing a sucktastic job, because, wouldn't people be interested if I didn't suck? I don't know. I honestly don't -- just that I think about it too much, I guess, and I'm too emotional about it right now because I can't write, I seem to be able only to vid right now.
- I was looking out my kitchen window when I noticed there were glass fragments on the window middle sill. It took me a sec to realize that they were inside the window, so I went out and looked, and sure enough, my window is broken. There are these new kids (boys, of course) in the area and they have been doing all kinds of crap to my house and yard when they are running around "playing", and now I wonder if that thump I'd heard earlier in the day was them throwing something at the house. Or it could be a bird, but... man, that would have to be a big bird to do that much damange. So that's going to be a couple hundred dollars I'd been saving to do another beautification project, down the drain. Every time I catch up...
- I hit my head in the exact same spot I've been hitting ever since I started painting the house and now I have a walnut sized bump again, which looks ever so attractive.
- Something is giving me an allergic reaction and making my mouth and lips peel and harden like leather. I'm trying to eliminate stuff -- different lip balms, face creams or cleansers, etc., but I still can't find the culprit. Yesterday I was eating something and realized I was tasting blood, and sure enough, my lips had cracked so bad they were bleeding.
So that is why I am whiny and grumpy and hatey. I am not good company.
