somniloquence

My problem, Gwyn, is that I get stuck emotionally at Smashed, and can't get past it. I seriously can't. Which is a very painful place to be stuck at, given everything that has happened since. I am full of admiration for people like yourself who manage to see good in BtVS season 7 and AtS season 5. Because I just can't. And I also admire people such as yourself who can see good in the recent ME stuff at the same time as still loving the Spike/Buffy link, because they seem to me to be two such opposing poles that I couldn't hold in my head at the same time. Maybe I'm just really inflexible. I want to wave a magic wand and make my favourite fic ``real'' instead of canon. Which is silly because none of it is ``real''.

How I like to see my favourite fic writing, is as myth making -- taking a story and finding the core of it that moves people and building a stronger better story that resonates in people in a powerful way. In a way that ME have dodged, because... as Barb C said: ``Marti ... nice girl, but she has issues.'' And Spike/Buffy will always be that powerful resonating story for me. It works on so many powerful levels -- love, good, evil, loyalty, and the nature of true heroism which I believe is the struggle to love and better yourself and lead a decent sort of life rather than who bops the most baddies -- etc etc. It's much more than: depressed girl boinks sexy bad guy then ditches him because he's so beneath her and she's found more life-enhancing things to do. (Like what?)

Anyway, Gwyn, I admire your generosity to the Jossverse as a whole, while you still stake your claim to your favourite issues. I don't think I can do that. Which makes my fandom passionate and pathetic. Maybe not really pathetic -- just feels like it at the moment.

Sorry to go on so long, but I'm just looking at your icon. I so hated that episode. Spike being used as beefcake, and doing that nasty little pout. And Buffy comes downstairs like some asexual sergeant-major and she isn't even jealous of that cosy little Spike/Faith scene. Rrrrrrrr. Spike/Buffy was so juiceless all through season 7, with the sole exception of First Date which was just one big merciless tease to people like me.

Okay -- going now. Gotta get some sleep. Excuse the rant.