somniloquence

Massive, massive hugs. {{{you}}} I don't think I have any wisdom for you, except to say on good days, I think you have things to keep on for, if only for the kitties, and things you enjoy doing and watching, but I know it's hard to see positive things at a time like this.

One small practical note: would it be possible, once the cousin has taken care of the things he's taking, to have the bulk of it moved by a moving company into a storage unit? There would be the cost of it, but at that point it would be out of the apartment, and possibly then you could take your time going about it, at a much smaller cost than the full apartment. You wouldn't have to do all this right now.