I hate the fannish cupid

[gwyn]

Wow, we had an amazing thunderstorm last night around midnight, right over my house at one point. It's never like that -- the lightning is usually over the water, down the hill from me, or over east toward the Cascades, so having it right on top of us was a trip. I watched it for over an hour, and the cats were like, "What the fuck?"ing all over the place, but I was very excited. I loooove lightning from a safe distance. Poor Mr. Blues, though -- he'd just started getting back to his normal self after all the fireworks on the 4th, and still spooks a little too easily, and last night just kind of sealed the deal. I'm not sure how soon he's going to be back to normal.

I half expected Thor to arrive with it. Which is my segue into my subject line. So, I have no idea how this happened, but I've become quite smitten with Loki, specifically Tom Hiddleston's face. At first I didn't get why people were so enamored of him, but, and I guess it must be Tumblr and all the endless gifs of his face or something, but I'm all madly in love with him now, like fannish cupid has hit me with an arrow and I am quite unhappy about this! Because a) I didn't really want this to be a big fandom for me, super large fandoms scare me, and b) I don't get Loki at all, and I don't like that kind of character. I don't like maliciousness for the sake of malice, I don't generally like sociopathic behavior, and murderers are not an appealing type of character to me. I especially dislike villains who want to rule the world or enslave everyone or destroy the world or whatnot...that's always struck me as the lamest type of idea, and that's what superhero comics villains are usually all about.

So imagine my quandary. But his faaaaace. I love his ridiculous flip hairstyle in Avengers, and his absurd outfit and helmet (and I wondered all throughout Thor if anyone in Asgard ever wears, like, casual Friday clothes or anything, because they're always strutting around in leather and armor and full metal gowns and breastplates, and man that would be uncomfortable -- doesn't anyone ever just chill in godlike sweats and a t-shirt?), but mostly his huuuuge eyes and haunted gaze and his very large Chicklet teeth. Why? Why, fannish cupid, have you done this to me? Also, I really didn't like his character in Wallander and his hair was terrible, and so I kind of dismissed him long ago, and people should not suddenly bounce back into your interests like that. They should stay put. (Also, no I will never watch War Horse.)

So now I guess it's official that I love everyone in Avengers, sigh. Large fandoms with huuuuuge back story and canon really worry me -- I'd love to write, but I don't know enough to know if I'd just be doing something already done, and I can't wade through lots of fic because I don't have enough time to read my work, as it is. Bleh. I suppose I'm going to have to get icons.

Fitness training continues apace. My IT band is really problematic. I feel really unmotivated and I have to leave in about a half hour for today's session, and I really battled that on Friday. I'm not sure what to do -- I guess I'm already tired of it. I have to keep focusing on that dress for VVC and my clothes closet and being able to sit at my computer.

Here's two very different types of heliconia at the McBryde Garden:

Comments

[sakana17]

:D Seeing The Avengers, I kept saying, "Loki's so evil! But Tom Hiddleston's so cute!" There's just something about him.

[gwyn]

I know! He's kind of irresistible. Oh Hiddleston, you sweep us all up in your charms.

[klia]

I've been into TH for a while. He's so charismatic and beautiful! I actually loved him as Magnus -- not the character, necessarily, but I loved that he seemed to sulk a lot because he didn't get enough attention from Wallander. So when he was cast as Loki, I was thrilled. And I love Loki, even though he's malicious and crazy and deserves everything he gets. At the same time, growing up in a sibling's shadow and feeling like you don't belong really resonates with me, so I kind of understand that part of him.

I'm kind of desperate to see him as Henry V in BBC's The Hollow Crown, which I don't think has aired yet, but I've seen a bunch of stills, and... *grabby hands*

I think he was the first actor I followed on Twitter, and I have to say, he comes across as very smart and articulate, kind of adorkable (his reaction to meeting Miss Piggy at some award show was too adorable for words), and extremely sweet. I'm afraid it's made me crush on him a lot harder.

[gwyn]

I'd probably have to go back and watch Wallander again to see if I'd feel differently about him now that I'm in lerve. I remember being annoyed by his hair -- sometimes it would seem okay, and then other times it looked like someone put a mushroom on his head. I also remembered some kind of like, sexist or racist remark that really pissed me off, but I can't remember what set me off. Anyways! Dammit, new fannish BSO.

[dorothy1901]

I wondered all throughout Thor if anyone in Asgard ever wears, like, casual Friday clothes or anything

IIRC, back in the days when Lee and Kirby were doing Thor, everybody had a Little Orphan Annie wardrobe: there was only one outfit, which the character wore all the damn time. The notable exception was Odin, who had a huuuge wardrobe. He never wore the same outfit twice, and maybe he even changed clothes between panels. One particular outfit was dubbed "Odin's bunny slippers." It wasn't the kind of thing you'd wear for official business. So the answer to your question is yes, kinda, but only Odin.

[gwyn]

Odin's bunny slippers. OMG. Of course, only Odin gets a wardrobe change. How could we expect any different? ;-)

[amnisias.livejournal.com]

Just sending a bit of encouragement and cheer your way. Clothes are VERY GOOD motivators in my experience. So, well done if you got yourself out the door today. And if not: Try again next time, one slip up does not mean fell of the wagon!

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

I asked today if this ever got any easier. They said yes, but then we up the ante on the workouts. Gah. I think I have a looooong road ahead! But if I can fit into things, yeah. I have amazing clothes that I haven't worn for years.

[sdwolfpup.livejournal.com]

Think of it this way: at least you're in a fandom where you have all the people you want to squee with! Instead of a fandom where there's so few people you feel like you're bothering them every time you need to talk to someone. /over-identifying *cough*

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

I know, right? (As we both shake our heads over PB) I'm actually writing fic, SDW. I'm writing fic. WTF????

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

Oh Gwyn, I feel you! But it's OK! Give innnnn....give iinnnnnnn. Plus now there's Shakespeare!

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

I know! I DLed a torrent but it won't play, it's just greyed out, so I tried to find another one... I HAVE to see this.

I am actually writing fic. With Loki. I kind of can't believe this. I don't know who I am anymore.

[cesperanza.livejournal.com]

I hereby dedicate my and astolat's VVC vid to you. You'll know what I mean when you see it. You have ALL MY SYMPATHIES. <3 <3 <3

[cythna.livejournal.com]

I haven't seen Thor or the Avengers, but I did see Henry IV part one on Sunday, and I'm in love with Prince Henry! Anyone feel like writing any Hal fic? Hiddlestone is fantastic in the play I think, and I can't wait for part 2. "I know you not, old man!" sob.

(Back to lurking on your journal)