gwyn: (spock iconziconz)
Even though I am free from having to teach class now, I am not technically free, as I have to review all the student projects that got sent in at the end, which I hate. Why must they always wait till the last minute? It's so boring slogging through all the bad writing to find the places I have to tell them they could offer help to the writer on -- one person sent me the whole 440-page ms. she's working on (around 50 pages is the general limit I set so that they would get a chance to edit, but not have too much above the work they already have for class).

I had hoped to have a nice holiday weekend of at least some fun in amongst the toil, but there was not much of that to be had, mostly just toil. Dad and I went to all the family graves on Saturday and it took pretty much the whole day -- partly because there are so many of them, partly because he's walking so slowly and in so much pain these days, but mostly because I had to dig out all the vases from each site, as they'd all grown over with grass and dirt. There I was in the unusually hot sun for a May weekend, trying to find the spots with the vases with dad's bear knife, and then trying to dig and pull them out with my fingers. It was tedious, yo.

But every once in a while dad cracks me up. A few years ago we were driving over to southern Idaho and he launched into this rant about people who have flags flying all over their cars and why they feel they have to advertise their version of patriotism when it doesn't make them anymore patriotic than anyone else. Then Saturday he rather vigorously declined to buy a flag for my mom's parents' graves at the one cemetery they're in because he didn't believe he needed to spend that much money for "free" flags that aren't free because the Boy Scouts hit you up for a donation if you take one, and he didn't want to support an organization that way, and also, they discriminated against gays. This is my Republican, lifetime-NRA member, decorated WWII-veteran dad. Sometimes I really like him.

Anyways. On Sunday I went to see Star Trek again, and then toiled in the yard, which is so overgrown with weeds and bad stuff that I can't even see the good things, and then toiled all day yesterday as well. So now I'm behind on the student projects, still haven't made a dent in the yard, and am depressed about it. But not about the movie! This time, I was reminded of things I didn't mention the first time, and then also more confounded by stuff that confounded me the first time )
gwyn: (insane angel elz)
So I asked my dad a few minutes ago if he would please kill me and put me out of my misery, and he declined. Parents never do what you want them to. They suck.

I just really hate my life and myself so much now I could scream, or lock myself in a corner of a dark room and mutter insanely, like Angel in the icon.

A while ago, [livejournal.com profile] feochadn discovered $5 matinees early in the morning at a local theatre, of first-run movies. I was really hot to see the new Star Trek movie (really, Karl Urban as McCoy -- my life would be complete), so we arranged to go even though it was at a time I am usually just getting up on a Sunday. I had a hard time getting up as usual, too, since I had guests last night, and I ran out of the house to get cash and head up there, only to get stuck behind a guy doing all his banking apparently, and I waited almost ten minutes for that. Then the ATM wouldn't let me have any money, because I was overdrawn, even though i'd moved money into checking. This is the third time in the past couple weeks this has happened, and I had carefully planned out the money, but I guess it's the whole me + numbers = unmixy thing, because I still end up overdrawn. As a fraidy-cat who can't stand not having hundreds in my checking account just in case, this always puts the fear of god in me.

So that took an extra five minutes, then I raced off, only to get stuck behind the Sunday Morning Going to Church at 20 MPH crowd, completely pinned in for miles going 10 under the limit. By the time I could finally break free, I was nearly there, about ten minutes after showtime. ANd instead of slowing down, remembering the adage of my subject line, I sped into the parking lot and swung into a parking space and kapow. The Beetle is a very low slung car. I always forget this. And I smashed the left front bumper undercarriage into the curb, completely peeling away the skirt protecting the wheel and all the gizmos there (not to mention doing a number on my bumper). I just psuhed it back sort of in place and went to the movie, muttering darkly. [livejournal.com profile] mlyn and [livejournal.com profile] feochadn there-there'd me and Jo promised to look at it after the movie.

We spent a few minutes trying to push the skirt back on in some way, and then I noticed that there was a large bulge in the tire. So Jo mentioned a Firestone place a little bit away that was open on Sundays and after $300+ I left, my whole day blown, because they also had to adjust the alignment which got pretty blown by hitting the curb so hard (on top of the damage I regularly get by driving in one of the worst parts of the city -- I guess West Seattle got ranked a few years ago as having the most damaged streets per area in city limits. Go us). I thought they attached the skirt, but they didn't, as I discovered when, driving as slowly as I could, it flew off under the car and I drove over most of it. All the way home, I heard this scraping sound but there was no wobble in the wheel or pull to indicate I'd lost one of the tires. People were flipping me off, screaming at me, etc., so I figured whatever damage there was must not have been visible and all people saw was this person driving slightly under the speed limit (WTF?) so they felt they could harrass me with impunity.

I was just starting to feel like maybe I could get a handle on the future and the bills and all that. I so didn't need this, and it's totally my fault. I got up late, and first broke a glass, then accidentally hurled cat kibbles everywhere, and so on, and instead of just taking a breath and being okay with missing the overblown, bombastic previews that I've mostly seen before anyway, I made haste and totally made waste of my budget and my sanity. I really hate myself and my life sometimes.

If I had any money, I'd go up to the new, cool bar near my place and drink some more of their awesomely awesome drinks (seriously, if I had a regular income, I would be in trouble). But for now I will just try to forget all this until tomorrow when I have to see if I can get that bunched up piece of the skirt fixed and replace the rest of it, and bask in the movie Because I would never have believed it, but the movie was AWESOME )

sekrit to [livejournal.com profile] killabeez: That relationship you were worried about? It's actually pretty cool, I think, and is definitely there in the movie

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