gwyn | Wish me away

I've been really struggling again with the worthless feelings and the not wanting to get out of bed because why bother. So I never seem to get around to posting. And it isn't helped by the dismal weather we've had since I got back from my trip.

I had to take Blues in to the vet a couple weeks ago, because he'd gotten in a fight and was doing pretty bad, and he was mostly okay but it did give us a chance to look at his terrible teeth, and they had got so bad just in the past few months that I had to schedule him for a dental right away. So they had to remove his left top fang, which broke off sometime last year at the tip, but there was just enough of a crack up above the gumline that they removed it. He's been stoned to the gills from the pain shot they gave him, which is always entertaining, but I feel so sorry for him. He had extractions before, and apparently cats can reabsorb their teeth (WTF!!!), which has also happened, so he's gonna be a toothless old man by the time he's ten, at this rate. He's been obsessed with getting outside since midsummer; nothing I can do deters him and he's already tripped me so many times trying to get out that at some point I'm going to actually break a bone when I fall. It's really a good thing he's so fucking cute, because he's a terror and he's the most expensive cat I've ever had. He's going to break me in every way, he really is.

I met someone when I was at

cesperanza's a couple weeks ago when I was in NY, and I thought, when she and

geekturnedvamp guided me back to my hotel on the subway, that she was someone I could totally be friends with -- the whole night I just kept thinking how incredibly funny, smart, witty, and cool she was. After I got home, the friending/following commenced, but I found out on Saturday that she had passed away, and I was just devastated. I hadn't even really got the chance to know

divanoir, yet, but it's made me so effing sad. She was way too young, and really just such a cool person, and I am especially sorry for her friends in NY, many of whom were there that night, because that's going to leave a big hole in their lives. But I'm also glad that I was there, and that everyone had a reason to hang out that night.

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kass

I am so sorry to hear about

divanoir, whom I did not know, but just knowing that my friends have lost a friend makes me sad. May her memory be a blessing.

And I'm sorry you've come home to pet woes and to general existential malaise. I send love.

nagasvoice

Oh my, serious (((hugs))) called for. That's reason to grieve. And in Blue's case, to be annoyed! I have a couple escape artists myself, and it's a problem for anybody visiting the house, too.

devilc

Sorry it's all so hard for you right now.

grammarwoman

Dismal is a very good description of the weather, though I did get a selfish grin yesterday when coworkers a couple of states away had to dig out from under a foot of snow while we had a sunny-but-cool day.

*HUGS* I'm sorry for everything else that's going wrong. I hope nekkid CEvans is some kind of comfort in these trying times.