gwyn: (skinny steve)
[personal profile] gwyn
I miss Miss Kitty so much. I can't stop thinking about how terribly she died, and Blues is still so...I don't know. Different. Last night he was sleeping and made this howling noise in his sleep, which he's never done before. He got pretty sick a few weeks ago, though, so I suppose he's just different in a lot of ways. I had to take him to the vet urgently, which meant lots of $$, and his lungs were not looking good. They were concerned he has kitty asthma or heart problems, but the steroid and antibiotic shots they gave him seemed to help a lot. But he's not the same. I know how crazy that sounds, but he's not. I know some of it is health, some of it is missing Olive, some of it is that he's the solo kitty here and he doesn't have competition.

Even though I can't really afford it (I am right now having contractors in to rebuild the south wall of my house, because the siding was peeling away and the underlayer was disintegrating, and wow, talk about beaucoup bucks), I'm making my plans to go to DC again in October. It's probably the last time my friend will be there when I can visit, and then we'll head up to NYC either for one or two nights. Pretty much same thing I did last year. I had so much fun location scouting for Cap2; I won't have quite the same level of fun this time in that respect, but I've made some new acquaintances since then that I can meet up with, so that would be good. Just trying to hold on to one or two things that make me feel like I can keep going.

I'm writing, but it's hard. I just feel like it's pointless, a waste of time.

These are some pictures that black_bird_777 took of Olive a few years ago in the backyard. She was such an amazing kitty. It's hard to sleep without her purring by my head and her little head resting on my hand. Plus she had the daintiest little feet, and I miss feeling them on my back when she'd walk across me.

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Date: 2015-09-03 10:40 pm (UTC)
kore: (Default)
From: [personal profile] kore
What a beautiful girl. Those stripes on her tail!

I think it's good you are keeping on keeping on and writing and planning, even if it feels joyless and pointless now. I felt in a lot of ways Tania was one of my dearest friends (if that doesn't sound too weird) and losing her was terrible. And even then it was slow, so there was a lot of preparation. I'm so sorry.

Date: 2015-09-04 12:02 am (UTC)
st_aurafina: Rainbow DNA (Default)
From: [personal profile] st_aurafina
*hugs* I'm so sorry. It's so hard to lose them.

Date: 2015-09-06 10:15 am (UTC)
st_aurafina: lotsa little rainbow hearts (hearts: lotsa hearts)
From: [personal profile] st_aurafina
Hey, lovely, I don't know if you saw it, but when I was compiling [livejournal.com profile] comicstore_news, I saw a really nice rec for your Titanium vid - here. Thought it might bring you some cheer while you're feeling sad.

*hugs*

Date: 2015-09-07 07:10 am (UTC)
nagasvoice: lj default (Default)
From: [personal profile] nagasvoice
It's an awesome vid, thank you for making and posting it.

Date: 2015-09-04 01:56 am (UTC)
talitha78: (frog by jazzy_peaches)
From: [personal profile] talitha78
*hugs*

For a bit of egoboo, here is a rec of "Titanium" I saw on a recs community: http://epic-recs.livejournal.com/806671.html

Date: 2015-09-04 02:16 am (UTC)
umadoshi: (walking in water)
From: [personal profile] umadoshi
*many hugs* Such a lovely cat. Those are great photos, especially the middle one.

Date: 2015-09-04 02:47 am (UTC)
cesperanza: (Default)
From: [personal profile] cesperanza
Keep me posted, I'll put together a winter soldier party if you come up!

Date: 2015-09-04 03:29 am (UTC)
grammarwoman: (Default)
From: [personal profile] grammarwoman
What a gorgeous and fierce girl, like a mini-tiger!

Oh, I know how much that hurts to miss your furry family member. *HUGS* Here's hoping your distractions are enjoyable and help ease the ache, even just a little bit.

Date: 2015-09-04 05:42 am (UTC)
ranalore: (penguins make everything better)
From: [personal profile] ranalore
*hugs if you want them* What a beautiful girl.

Date: 2015-09-04 04:13 pm (UTC)
sperrywink: (Default)
From: [personal profile] sperrywink
{{{hugs}}}

It is hard, but I am glad you are hanging in there.

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