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Jun. 1st, 2018 11:04 pmHad my "six month" follow-up with the surgeon yesterday which was actually nine months, but who's counting. It sounds like everything is proceeding as it should, but I did find out the stage of the tumor was 1b, which is good but not quite as good as 1a, so that means they will do blood tests more frequently than if it had been 1a, and also the fact that I am younger means they watch more closely than if it had been the same result but I was older. So that was news. I am supposed to get my one-year follow-up colonoscopy soon, but I am not sure what I'm going to do: I was forced to get different insurance this year, and my deductible is now so high that I cannot really afford medical care at all let alone something as pricey as the colonoscopy.
If I was at all popular I might consider signing up for ko-fi or something just for a little help, but I think the only people who can reap the benefits of things like that are popular writers or fan artists. I want to go to the last Vividcon, though, and I really, really don't want to sacrifice that, so I'll have to figure something out. Bleh. Being poor again sucks, for a while I wasn't living hand to mouth and that was so great. I miss it.
I'm trying to work on this vid project but I really shouldn't, I should just accept that I cannot possibly do something this huge by the deadline but…killa's an evil enabler and is giving me some clips, and I've been downloading things I can find on youtube but a lot of what I want isn't there, or I don't know the fandom well enough to know where to find happy huggy teamy clips that would fit for the vid. Sometimes I hate how much of a self-punishing idiot I am.
The artist for my Cap RBB fic still hasn't read the story I wrote. On a good day I feel like crap because of the indifference to my fic but man, that one really stings. I gave her drafts, and then the final, and then posted, but she's never read it, and I don't know if she even will.
I keep thinking of putting together a post of media recently viewed, but then I get lazy. I enjoyed Deadpool 2 but I was also kind of put off by a lot of aspects (especially the two, count 'em two, fridging plot points), enjoyed A Quiet Place but I also thought it was trying way too hard by adding a lot of cheesy and unnecessary jump scares to goose the horror aspect, but I liked the melancholy, sad, grieving nature of the story, something you don't see in horror thrillers much. And I keep wondering if I'm really weird because I actually kinda want to see Tag. What does that say about me? Probably nothing good.
If I was at all popular I might consider signing up for ko-fi or something just for a little help, but I think the only people who can reap the benefits of things like that are popular writers or fan artists. I want to go to the last Vividcon, though, and I really, really don't want to sacrifice that, so I'll have to figure something out. Bleh. Being poor again sucks, for a while I wasn't living hand to mouth and that was so great. I miss it.
I'm trying to work on this vid project but I really shouldn't, I should just accept that I cannot possibly do something this huge by the deadline but…killa's an evil enabler and is giving me some clips, and I've been downloading things I can find on youtube but a lot of what I want isn't there, or I don't know the fandom well enough to know where to find happy huggy teamy clips that would fit for the vid. Sometimes I hate how much of a self-punishing idiot I am.
The artist for my Cap RBB fic still hasn't read the story I wrote. On a good day I feel like crap because of the indifference to my fic but man, that one really stings. I gave her drafts, and then the final, and then posted, but she's never read it, and I don't know if she even will.
I keep thinking of putting together a post of media recently viewed, but then I get lazy. I enjoyed Deadpool 2 but I was also kind of put off by a lot of aspects (especially the two, count 'em two, fridging plot points), enjoyed A Quiet Place but I also thought it was trying way too hard by adding a lot of cheesy and unnecessary jump scares to goose the horror aspect, but I liked the melancholy, sad, grieving nature of the story, something you don't see in horror thrillers much. And I keep wondering if I'm really weird because I actually kinda want to see Tag. What does that say about me? Probably nothing good.
