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Feels like: Antarctica
Feb. 9th, 2019 12:18 pmFor once, the predicted snowpocalypse is in fact a snowy apocalypse--over 8 inches and counting. I couldn't sleep last night because I was so worried about a tree limb falling on something, anything: power lines, the garage, my house, another plant. As it is I might lose the main part of my lilac bush, which is about 70 years old, and I'm not sure how much more the black bamboo can handle. It's scary af because there's more expected, but no one is saying it's going away at any point, and temperatures are hovering around freezing every day. Multiple snowstorms are expected.
And hey, hi, I haven't been around much since I finished the 31 flavors recs. To be honest, I probably won't be as much as I used to: between the awful discussions about money that have made me feel like I'm some sort of sleazy scam artist for being in a financial crisis right now and having a ko-fi account; the backlash about people wanting control over their posts; my inability to understand this where-fandom's-going-next stuff; and most of all, feeling like I can't trust my own community of fans because they're scraping decades-old personal shit from journals and posting it and bullying anyone who takes issue with it being on fanlore (seriously fuck fanlore to hell, they're violating the very community they're pretending to be about documenting), I just...don't feel like fandom's a fun place right now. And really, it doesn't matter--I have never felt more like what is the point of working so hard on things, about loving fandom, when no one even sees me.
Existential crisis: it's what's for dinner.
On a work note, I just finished a really weirdly written book that I thought for sure was a new author; turns out she's published a few books. I was just O.o . None of the basic mechanical things that current publishing standards require, like section breaks or clear POV shifts, random time jump whiplash, no dialog tags. But I'm sure it wasn't intentionally ominiscient narrative. Seriously, there are so few dialog tags even I, a professional reader, couldn't easily follow.
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And hey, hi, I haven't been around much since I finished the 31 flavors recs. To be honest, I probably won't be as much as I used to: between the awful discussions about money that have made me feel like I'm some sort of sleazy scam artist for being in a financial crisis right now and having a ko-fi account; the backlash about people wanting control over their posts; my inability to understand this where-fandom's-going-next stuff; and most of all, feeling like I can't trust my own community of fans because they're scraping decades-old personal shit from journals and posting it and bullying anyone who takes issue with it being on fanlore (seriously fuck fanlore to hell, they're violating the very community they're pretending to be about documenting), I just...don't feel like fandom's a fun place right now. And really, it doesn't matter--I have never felt more like what is the point of working so hard on things, about loving fandom, when no one even sees me.
Existential crisis: it's what's for dinner.
On a work note, I just finished a really weirdly written book that I thought for sure was a new author; turns out she's published a few books. I was just O.o . None of the basic mechanical things that current publishing standards require, like section breaks or clear POV shifts, random time jump whiplash, no dialog tags. But I'm sure it wasn't intentionally ominiscient narrative. Seriously, there are so few dialog tags even I, a professional reader, couldn't easily follow.
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