gwyn | So, there's that

So, I made the mistake of trying to talk about the shitstorm, and got called a sociopath and a teabagger, and have had mass defriendings because god forbid, you try to put some things into historical context so people can have information that might aid in a discussion. No, it was all a personal attack on them, apparently. And now the discussion has morphed into something entirely different, and everyone wants to ascribe motivations to anyone saying anything, and I can't stand it anymore. What I really hate most is the name-calling and the assumption of motivations -- most of the people who are spreading the hate don't know anything about the people they're accusing of things, yet that doesn't stop them.

I really hate fandom right now. I've made a really tight filter, and I will probably cull my reading lists down a lot in the near future. I have a lot of work right now (probably not as much in the near future, but at least for now, there's more of it that I should focus on), and I want to write more.

About a month and a half ago, I stopped taking antidepressants and the desire to write again has finally returned, and I want to write RL stuff, not as much fanfic because, see above. I've thought about it for so long, but haven't done anything about it because the citalopram made it pretty much impossible for me to write (and read anything as long as a book). I want to work to get some of the weight I gained on it off. So there's a lot of stuff for me to do that isn't here. Everything makes me cry right now, and I'm back to having a lot of the overwhelming grief and PTSD around sis_r's death influence my feelings. I'm also back to my insomnia and restless leg syndrome, which makes it even harder to sleep, and not having sleep makes it... you know.

I'm not saying I'm not going to post, but I want to stay away from a lot of LJ and DW, and I still owe people some prompts from the class nightmare time -- but I can't see posting a lot. The one thing I can't figure out how to do is make the new filter appear as my default. I keep selecting it, but it always defaults back to the main viewing page. Right now, I'm just not capable of reading all that crap out there, so I'd like to filter it away, but I can't seem to make this work consistently. Anyone have knowledge they can help me out with?