So...tired...must...reach... controls
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gwynI finished chapter 8 of Measure of a Man yesterday. I mean, finished writing; don't go asking where the link is, because now begins the usual process of editing and editing. I'm not that kind of person who writes and posts things in one sitting, and believe me, while I realize that 95% of fans don't care or know that your story is full of crap ideas and typos and misspellings and subjunctive and passive voice and whatever, *I* care and just can't do that.
But when I was working on it (and sorry, again, for delays, but seriously, real life is kicking my ass up one street and down the other, between my dad moving, my sister's illness, my work transition -- which is a nightmare -- and trying to set up my office to work from home), I realized something that hadn't occurred to me previously: I never intended to write an alternate season 7, but I am. Not one of those comprehensive, episodic-like alternate seasons, like Anna's![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
eliade Season Noir, but at least a slightly different direction for similar events in the season. I'd started out with this story in my mind (a mini full season dvd set, if you will) of showing Spike trying to deal with this thing that went haywire, and have him move through a series of Picaresque adventures and misadventures trying to solve it, eventually bringing him back to Sunnydale and back to the gang. And they would deal with the First and all, but that wasn't the central focus. That it would end similarly but better for my Spuffy heart that will not die. But along the way... it became about him, *and the gang* coming back together to cope with this threat, and that by being together, that was how they coped and vanquished their foes. And then all this slice of life stuff started creeping into it without my even planning it.
Even though I make a complete movie in my head, I like to let stories unfold as they will when I'm writing, because the process of writing them down turns them into something different than my movies (especially since my movies are way better than anything I could write). This didn't so much unfold as explode. And once I realized that the direction I was avoiding going in wouldn't be that bad -- especially if I could bring back Angel and Co. -- I finally had to accept that I was coming up with an AU what-if scenario of the whole season, without ever intending it.
So no wonder it tuckers me out. It's kind of taking on a life of its own, which I guess is appropriate when writing about Spike and the Scoobs. Now if I could just find some time to actually work on the edits...
But when I was working on it (and sorry, again, for delays, but seriously, real life is kicking my ass up one street and down the other, between my dad moving, my sister's illness, my work transition -- which is a nightmare -- and trying to set up my office to work from home), I realized something that hadn't occurred to me previously: I never intended to write an alternate season 7, but I am. Not one of those comprehensive, episodic-like alternate seasons, like Anna's
eliade Season Noir, but at least a slightly different direction for similar events in the season. I'd started out with this story in my mind (a mini full season dvd set, if you will) of showing Spike trying to deal with this thing that went haywire, and have him move through a series of Picaresque adventures and misadventures trying to solve it, eventually bringing him back to Sunnydale and back to the gang. And they would deal with the First and all, but that wasn't the central focus. That it would end similarly but better for my Spuffy heart that will not die. But along the way... it became about him, *and the gang* coming back together to cope with this threat, and that by being together, that was how they coped and vanquished their foes. And then all this slice of life stuff started creeping into it without my even planning it.Even though I make a complete movie in my head, I like to let stories unfold as they will when I'm writing, because the process of writing them down turns them into something different than my movies (especially since my movies are way better than anything I could write). This didn't so much unfold as explode. And once I realized that the direction I was avoiding going in wouldn't be that bad -- especially if I could bring back Angel and Co. -- I finally had to accept that I was coming up with an AU what-if scenario of the whole season, without ever intending it.
So no wonder it tuckers me out. It's kind of taking on a life of its own, which I guess is appropriate when writing about Spike and the Scoobs. Now if I could just find some time to actually work on the edits...
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Date: 2005-01-13 08:17 pm (UTC)Hope life starts treating you better soon.
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