Goodbye my sweet friend

[gwyn]

My baby girl, Olive, died last night. It's all my fault, I was closing up the house because I'd had the doors open since the house was 97 degrees inside when I got home. She decided that if I was closing up, it was time to go walkabout, I guess, and something attacked her. I tried to get her back in all night, but when it's hot out, she would often stay out all night and show up like, what? in the morning after I'd spent a sleepless night worrying about her.

No need to lecture me about outdoor kitties. I lost the war with her a long time ago, and I've lived in fear of this day. She'd gotten so much better in her old age, content to lie under the grill in the shade on the back deck, or hang out in the window perch next to me while I worked.

She slept on my bed next to my head, and hated Blues kitty so much she tried to move in with a neighbor once. Every morning they slap-fought while I got their food ready. She loved milk more than anything in the world. She loved to play, even at her age, and chase fuzzy wooly balls around, and she talked to me all the time and loved to lick me, especially after I'd put lotion on.

She was my best bud, and I hate myself now for letting her go. I love her so much.

Comments

[gehayi.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Oh, so sorry to hear this. Don't blame yourself. I don't think it's wrong, from the cat's POV, to let cats out; they may live longer if they're kept indoors (not convinced of this) but most of the indoor cats I've met have been bonkers, due to being bored stiff. What do you think attacked her?

[belmanoir.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. ::hugs::

[bogwitch.livejournal.com]

Oh poor girl! That's so sad.

[mackiemesser.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry.

[batwrangler.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

Please try to be easy on yourself about this: you loved and cared for her the best you could; this was a horrible accident that happened to both Olive *and* you.

*hugs*

[destina.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know you can't hear me about this right now, but it is not your fault. Be kind to yourself.

[tazlet.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[barkley.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry.

[rattlecatcher.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[queenofattolia.livejournal.com]

So, so sorry for your loss. Don't beat yourself up; there are just some cats who refuse to be contained inside, despite our best efforts. One of my friend's cats actually launched herself out of a second story window because she was so desperate to go outside. She was able to clutch at a tree branch before landing softly and immediately took it on the lam. She came back eventually. That window was never left open again, but it didn't stop her from trying (sometimes successfully) from beating it out the front or back doors, despite people running interference on her. She was determined.

All of this is to say, sometimes you can't stop them. It's not your fault. You can try to contain them, but some of them have more wild animal in them than others, and they have to go out and take their chances in the wild.

Again, I'm so sorry. Her memory is a blessing.

[kirbyfest.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry for your loss. You were so lucky to have each other to love.

[hafital.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. :(

[carbonel]

I'm so sorry.

[smithereen.livejournal.com]

This sucks so much. :( I'm sorry.