With a love song stuck in my throat
Jun. 2nd, 2014 04:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwynUgh, my head has been aching for days with the trying not to cry. I am so fucking down and feel so utterly worthless, useless, and hopeless these days that it's a constant battle to stay upright. And I don't want to try to go on antidepressants again because the side effects are just so damn awful I don't really feel like it's worth it (plus it doesn't help me much, and kills being able to write, but then, I don't think anyone would care about that and I'm not even sure I do either, so). I keep thinking of my sister lately, even though this isn't the time of year I usually think of her the most, but she was worthy and useful and everyone loved her and I don't know why I'm still here and she's not.
And then there's the pain, the never ending fucking pain. I finally decided to suck up my fears and get a cortisone shot in my spine but it's done nothing, really. It's a tiny bit less horrible, but not enough, and when I see that bill I'm going to be even more miserable having spent that money but still no relief.
OK, to actually do something besides be sad and pathetic, here is something useful: I've seen this question around a lot lately in my circles, where people are wondering how you pluralize proper nouns that end in y, like people's names or businesses or such. I haven't done a usage post in years, but here's your answer:
When you're pluralizing those types of proper nouns, you don't treat them the same way as you would a regular noun ending in y. So, for instance, "We picked blackberries" is how you'd pluralize the noun blackberry, but "We bought two BlackBerrys at Frye's today" is how you'd handle the proper noun (name) of the handheld device. Same thing for people's names -- "We had four Cindys in our class" or "What if we made an army of Buckys!" or "What would we do without the Nick Furys of this world?" There you go.
And then there's the pain, the never ending fucking pain. I finally decided to suck up my fears and get a cortisone shot in my spine but it's done nothing, really. It's a tiny bit less horrible, but not enough, and when I see that bill I'm going to be even more miserable having spent that money but still no relief.
OK, to actually do something besides be sad and pathetic, here is something useful: I've seen this question around a lot lately in my circles, where people are wondering how you pluralize proper nouns that end in y, like people's names or businesses or such. I haven't done a usage post in years, but here's your answer:
When you're pluralizing those types of proper nouns, you don't treat them the same way as you would a regular noun ending in y. So, for instance, "We picked blackberries" is how you'd pluralize the noun blackberry, but "We bought two BlackBerrys at Frye's today" is how you'd handle the proper noun (name) of the handheld device. Same thing for people's names -- "We had four Cindys in our class" or "What if we made an army of Buckys!" or "What would we do without the Nick Furys of this world?" There you go.
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Date: 2014-06-02 11:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-03 12:24 am (UTC)*hugs*
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Date: 2014-06-03 01:57 am (UTC)<3
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Date: 2014-06-03 07:11 am (UTC)I did something to my own back early May somehow when I stretched to close a window (which is just a ridiculous thing for my back to have taken offense at, imo) and had bad sciatic pain in the weeks since, with pain meds doing nothing, and time and the PT my doctor prescribed improving things so very slowly. And just four weeks of having to deal with constant back pain have been awful, and mine does seem to be slowly improving at least, so I can cling to the hope that it won't become chronic. I don't even want to imagine if this was here to stay.
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Date: 2014-06-03 07:26 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-08 08:18 pm (UTC)Something you might consider is vitamin levels. My ARNP is trying to get me on a vitamin cocktail and maybe weaning me off the antidepressant. I can give you her name if you want to investigate it a little, or even just talk more. The vitamins we're focused on are all related to the pathways of good-feels hormones, so they might help in a more natural way.
*hugs you gently*
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Date: 2014-06-03 12:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2014-06-03 12:45 pm (UTC)I think that plainly this calls for an army of Buckys. But the question is, how do you pluralize a word that ends in ys? As in, "What would we do without the Gwyneth Rhyses of this world?"
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Date: 2014-06-03 06:25 pm (UTC)Be far poorer in many regards.
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