These aren't the droids you're looking for

[gwyn]

No usage post this week, either. Sorry, too blue moody and down in the dumps. Yes, believe me, I already know I suck.

Comments

[superplin.livejournal.com]

Yes, believe me, I already know I suck.

No, you don't.

Have you seen the "what I like about you" meme going around? (So far I know it's been posted by automatedalice_ and writteninstars, among others.) I know you haven't participated, but I'm going to pretend you've commented in someone's LJ and tell you the three things I like about you:

1. You care. Deeply. About the shows and characters you love, about words and how they're wielded, about people. Sometimes that makes things hard, but it makes you very special (see Angel vs. Hamilton: People who don't care about anything will never understand the people who do.).

2. Even--especially--on subjects you feel strongly about, you inject your writing with humor and love. You put your heart on the line to make things fun and interesting.

3. Your writing makes me weak at the knees. So much care goes into every word, so much thought and insight into the characters flows out of every sentence. Your stories are like love poems to the characters.

So, see, you really don't suck. ;)

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

Aw, thank you. I know there are a lot of people who have only come here for the usage posts, or Buffy fic, oir reviews, or whatever, and it's always very clear to me when they're annoyed that I'm not keeping up my end of the bargain. And a lot of dispiriting stuff lately has left me not caring. I'm like Spike "I'd do something, but I'm paralyzed by not caring." So normally I care, but now I'm all Angel in "Are You Now or Have You Ever Been". I'm Angel and Spike!

[umbo.livejournal.com]

You don't suck. You are so far from sucking that it actually makes me angry that you're saying that you suck! I'm sorry you're blue and moody and down in the dumps. But you don't suck :-)

*hugs*

Points at Shell

[maygra.livejournal.com]

*Word*

no suckage. Moody downness, maybe (which I hope I didn't contribute to) but not suckage.

[cathexys.livejournal.com]

run-by hugs and what the others said :-) no suckage!!!

[dettiot.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon, you are so FAR from sucking. Your usage posts are such a highlight for me. But I also love your posts about fandoms, and your life, and your struggles. I'm sorry you're all blue-moody; I was going through that yesterday and I know how much it bites. So I hope you're feeling better.

[fishsanwitt]

I hope you feel better soon, gwyn. ::hugs::

[cy-girl.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well!

[klia.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're feeling low. I empathize, believe me, and wish there was something I could do to help.

::hugs::

P.S. You. Do. Not. Suck.

[paratti.livejournal.com]

(((Hugs)))

[paris7am.livejournal.com]

The characters you write so well, *they* suck, well, *well*! Hungrily, with feeling, zing-ingly. *You* don't.

When I'm down, I read, and your fic has certainly helped me. Thank you for that. Wish I could repay you in kind, but I hope that you'll find something grand to read that will act as a cushy escalator for you.

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

Fic is a huge part of what's bringing me down right now, so I'm staying away except to beta read. Or work on Buffy stuff, where I know I actually do have people reading stuff. I've been neglecting them, so I need to work up some better feelings and deliver for a lot of really nice people.

[ruddigore.livejournal.com]

You're extraordinarily talented, kind, and altogether wonderful. There is no suckage. I hope you feel better soon.

[monanotlisa.livejournal.com]

You don't. And I think I speak for everyone on your flist when I say I don't love you for usage posts.

::hugs::

[ixchel55.livejournal.com]

Well, the good thing is that suckage is usually in the mind of the beholder and most people change their minds way more often than they change their underwear! Ergo, before too long the blue haze will lift and you'll realize you're so far above sucking that you'll go change your underwear.

OK, going to self-medicate now.

*hugs from a crazy person*

[mlyn.livejournal.com]

I think the point has been made that you don't suck...

I hope you beat your blues soon, hon. I also hope that it's not due to something like how sis_r is doing. I've been meaning to ask about her.

*Hugs*

[justacat.livejournal.com]

A little late here but ... I add my sentiments to all those above. You've given so much to so many people - I really believe no one who's done that could possibly suck.

And even if in some theoretical universe you *did* "suck," so many people love you - it clearly doesn't bother them at all.. (I hope that's not scant comfort - for some reason it's a very comforting thought to me, that I could be flawed and icky and yet people could still care about me). Meeting you was one of the high points of Vividcon for me, brief though it was.

None of that probably helps very much - but still, I hope very much that you are feeling better.

{{hugs}}

[voleuse.livejournal.com]

Just popping in to direct you to some Brian/Dom slash (http://www.livejournal.com/users/shrift/77205.html) that appeared on my f-list. Hope you feel cheerier!

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

LOL -- that's actually a huge part of what's bringing me down, F&F fic! But I will check it out.

Preeeeety icon.

[bellastoria.livejournal.com]

Don't be so hard on yourself. If you never wrote another word in LJ, you still wouldn't suck. It can be tough to crawl out of the black hole when you're down--it's not your fault! Do something nice for yourself, maybe it will help. Hoping you'll feel better soon.