Devil or angel, I can't make up my mind
Sep. 22nd, 2020 12:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gwynUsually I walk up to the grocery store near my house a lot, in the before times, often four or five times a week when the weather is decent and we're not choking on smoke or something. But with the pandemic, I have to drive a lot, because I'm stocking up more and they don't allow you to bring in your own bags, so it's way more of a pain to shop. I try to minimize going out, too, just because I think if more people stayed home more often, this virus would be a lot lower case count.
Yesterday I pulled in to the parking lot and got out and noticed what looked like a larger denomination bill on the ground--I tend to look around a lot more than the average person, and pick up loose change I find on the ground, because most people are just not observant, really, and so I can often find things they'd miss. It turned out to be a Benjamin--a 100 dollar bill. I haven't seen one in years, and marveled a bit at the anti-counterfeit measures they have now, but stuck it in my pocket.
The little devil on my shoulder was whispering "Finders keepers, you could definitely use 100 dollars" but the little angel on the other shoulder was whispering "Yes, it might belong to some douchebag dude who throws hundreds around like candy, but you don't know that, and it might be some person like you, for whom 100 dollars is astronomical right now, and maybe it's their rent money, you don't know" and also reminding me that I'm an honest person, fuck it all. So I went to the customer service counter and told them I'd found it in the lot, and maybe someone would call them, desperately hoping someone decent had turned it in. If I lost a bill like that, I'd be devastated.
She went over to the bank branch in the store and asked if they'd given out any hundreds that day, and apparently they had a few times, but they said that if they logged it in it'd be this whole process, but if the store logged it, it was less involved. She asked me if that was okay, and I confess, I was really hoping that she might ask me for my phone number in case no one ever claimed it, but she didn't, and went into the manager's room and started logging it in, and I could see a safe so I assume they put it in there. I don't know what happens to it if someone doesn't claim it. Maybe they'll give it to the customer service person. Oh well, they've been frontline workers in a pandemic, so, you know, they deserve it more than me anyway.
But man, that was hard. Giving that up was just really hard. I wanted to listen to the devil so bad.
I should do a post about stuff I've been watching lately. Because I have been watching A LOT. That's for another day, though. I will say that the X-Files rewatch they've been doing on metafilter has been really fun to read every day, and the Star Trek: The Next Generation one they're doing twice a week has been great, because a lot of these things I haven't wanted to revisit despite their importance to me when they first aired, but it's been fun analyzing and studying and watching with different eyes now. We've finally got into third season, where the show started to get better, so I'm rubbing my hands and looking forward to discussions about episodes like Yesterday's Enterprise and Darmok and Deja Q and Cause and Effect. Yay.
ETA: I'm trying not to be suicidally depressed after RBG's death, but that is even harder these days. Please vote. Please do anything you can to help others vote. For many of us, it's a matter of life and death. But I'm breaking out my old community organizer icon of Sojourner Truth in honor of these great women who made such a difference.
Yesterday I pulled in to the parking lot and got out and noticed what looked like a larger denomination bill on the ground--I tend to look around a lot more than the average person, and pick up loose change I find on the ground, because most people are just not observant, really, and so I can often find things they'd miss. It turned out to be a Benjamin--a 100 dollar bill. I haven't seen one in years, and marveled a bit at the anti-counterfeit measures they have now, but stuck it in my pocket.
The little devil on my shoulder was whispering "Finders keepers, you could definitely use 100 dollars" but the little angel on the other shoulder was whispering "Yes, it might belong to some douchebag dude who throws hundreds around like candy, but you don't know that, and it might be some person like you, for whom 100 dollars is astronomical right now, and maybe it's their rent money, you don't know" and also reminding me that I'm an honest person, fuck it all. So I went to the customer service counter and told them I'd found it in the lot, and maybe someone would call them, desperately hoping someone decent had turned it in. If I lost a bill like that, I'd be devastated.
She went over to the bank branch in the store and asked if they'd given out any hundreds that day, and apparently they had a few times, but they said that if they logged it in it'd be this whole process, but if the store logged it, it was less involved. She asked me if that was okay, and I confess, I was really hoping that she might ask me for my phone number in case no one ever claimed it, but she didn't, and went into the manager's room and started logging it in, and I could see a safe so I assume they put it in there. I don't know what happens to it if someone doesn't claim it. Maybe they'll give it to the customer service person. Oh well, they've been frontline workers in a pandemic, so, you know, they deserve it more than me anyway.
But man, that was hard. Giving that up was just really hard. I wanted to listen to the devil so bad.
I should do a post about stuff I've been watching lately. Because I have been watching A LOT. That's for another day, though. I will say that the X-Files rewatch they've been doing on metafilter has been really fun to read every day, and the Star Trek: The Next Generation one they're doing twice a week has been great, because a lot of these things I haven't wanted to revisit despite their importance to me when they first aired, but it's been fun analyzing and studying and watching with different eyes now. We've finally got into third season, where the show started to get better, so I'm rubbing my hands and looking forward to discussions about episodes like Yesterday's Enterprise and Darmok and Deja Q and Cause and Effect. Yay.
ETA: I'm trying not to be suicidally depressed after RBG's death, but that is even harder these days. Please vote. Please do anything you can to help others vote. For many of us, it's a matter of life and death. But I'm breaking out my old community organizer icon of Sojourner Truth in honor of these great women who made such a difference.
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Date: 2020-09-23 02:46 am (UTC)It is definitely hard days right now.