Save my life and I'll save yours

[gwyn]

Haven't been able to do the positivity meme day 4 because I just don't have anything positive. I am basically consumed with feeling worthless and pointless and wondering why I spend so much time creating fan works. And then on top of that, I'm working on this awful misogynistic thriller book, of course written by a man, where we're supposed to feel sorry for the serial killer because of the abuse he suffered that created his pathology. That kind of thing really doesn't help your depression.

1. I am going to a hockey game tonight with raveninthewind so that's at least one thing.

2. Got all my hotels lined up for DC and NYC.

3. It looks like I'll be able to meet up with dorinda and kerithwyn while I'm in DC, so yay.

Comments

[sholio]

Maybe this would be a good time to mention that I absolutely loved Dark Approach and have had it sitting open in a tab FOREVER to give feedback, because I read it in my Kindle while I was overnighting in the hospital last month and by the time I got to where I had proper Internet access, I had forgotten most of what I wanted to comment on and decided I needed to reread it in order to comment properly. Although the one thing I really specifically wanted to mention is how much I adored the ... let's see, how to phrase this, the way the story focuses on love in all its manifestations rather than getting bogged down in jealousy or prioritizing one kind of love above another kind. I absolutely loved that. And I really owe you a long comment!

[gwyn]

Oh, you are so sweet. I just…I know a lot of it is the depression talking, but the more I work on things, the worse they are. I spend a lot of time rewriting and editing, and it just makes me so hopeless about fixing things. I wish I could be one of those people who seem to write just fine and then slap something up and it's all good, but I can't, and then I put myself into an endless circle of "this is crap why bother." I do that with vids, too.

And then I think, oh, I'll work on my RL fiction, and I work on a crappy book like I have now, and I think "this is what's being published, what's the point in trying to make a good story."

Speaking of fic, I was so excited to see your new long story I could hardly stand it -- but I'm making myself stand it, because I have a looong flight coming up and most of the hotels don't have free wi-fi, so I'm DLing it to savor on my trip. I can't wait!

[sholio]

I hope you enjoy it! \o/

And nahhhh, don't feel bad about it, I have those days too. ♥ I just felt in this particular case like I really SHOULD say something because I've had that tab open forever with the intent of writing you a long comment, but I haven't managed to pull it together yet!