Save my life and I'll save yours

[gwyn]

Haven't been able to do the positivity meme day 4 because I just don't have anything positive. I am basically consumed with feeling worthless and pointless and wondering why I spend so much time creating fan works. And then on top of that, I'm working on this awful misogynistic thriller book, of course written by a man, where we're supposed to feel sorry for the serial killer because of the abuse he suffered that created his pathology. That kind of thing really doesn't help your depression.

1. I am going to a hockey game tonight with raveninthewind so that's at least one thing.

2. Got all my hotels lined up for DC and NYC.

3. It looks like I'll be able to meet up with dorinda and kerithwyn while I'm in DC, so yay.

Comments

[sholio]

Maybe this would be a good time to mention that I absolutely loved Dark Approach and have had it sitting open in a tab FOREVER to give feedback, because I read it in my Kindle while I was overnighting in the hospital last month and by the time I got to where I had proper Internet access, I had forgotten most of what I wanted to comment on and decided I needed to reread it in order to comment properly. Although the one thing I really specifically wanted to mention is how much I adored the ... let's see, how to phrase this, the way the story focuses on love in all its manifestations rather than getting bogged down in jealousy or prioritizing one kind of love above another kind. I absolutely loved that. And I really owe you a long comment!

[grammarwoman]

I think your fan works are amazing, and I offer you sympathetic *hugs* if you'd like them, from someone else who's been down for a while.

[killabeez]

*glomps you and simultaneously makes you a Cosmo*

[kass]

I send love.

(And I love your fan works! ♥)

[nagasvoice]

((hugs)) dunno if it helps, but I do hear from folks who comment that sometimes they write stuff they're sure is utter garbage, and then they fly through something happily sure it's great, and...it's not the way they thought when they come back to either piece much later. No sense of proportion about the general quality of their own work? Or perhaps an over-critical editorial tape loop in their heads when they're depressed, doesn't allow well enough for the standards they maintain all the time in, despite whatever crummy mental or physical state they happen to be in.
Which is me saying, you do good writing and we would love to see more and please accept more hugs!

[sperrywink]

I hope you feel better sometime soon. It sucks to be so consumed with bad thoughts. Guilt is my main one, ugh.

I love your fanworks! I have moved out of my reading phase, but you know I love your vids! I hope your feelings allow you to still create as time goes on. {{{hugs}}}

Give Raven my best and enjoy the hockey game!

I hope your trip East goes smashingly! Sorry I can't get together- my life is too uncertain at the moment.

[tavella.livejournal.com]

Hey, there's some good things up ahead at least. Sorry you are feeling so down.

[batwrangler.livejournal.com]

I hope you have a good time at the game and on your trip. (I'm trying to get out from under the metaphorical avalanche that buried me back in June but not, you know, break myself more in the process. It's hard.) *hugs*

[destina.livejournal.com]

I'm going to go make a comment on a thing and explain to you why you make fanworks. So you'll have it for reference purposes. *g*