Catching up...

[gwyn]

I promised download links to the two Vividcon vids--hallo spaceboy and dangerous--when I returned from Chicago, but then I fell down the hole of trying to finish my Stucky Big Bang fic on time, so they never went up. For the, like, two people who want to download higher res files, you can find them both at my vids site now. The spaceboy DL is pretty large, but that was the lowest size I could get without completely losing quality, for some reason. (I think my site is not viewable on mobile devices and some other things make it hard to access; I don't know what or why, and I don't really have the knowledge to know how to fix it. If anyone might be interested in helping me figure out how to fix it so it's more accessible, I'd love to talk to you, maybe I could pay you in a vid or fic.)


Man, it's one thing to expect a fic to do poorly but it's another thing for it to bomb completely. I feel so sorry for my artist, throwing in with me. Anyone who collaborates with me, really; they could pick literally anyone else in fandom and get more recognition or responses on their work.


I've had some run-ins with truly wretched customer service and support lately, and I'm just…I never feel quite so alone and hopeless as I do when confronted with people who expect me to solve problems I'm not in any way capable of solving on my own/too disabled by my back to do/don't have tool or skill sets and are then just fed up or plain nasty at me for it. And I'd really rather not pay astronomical sums for the privilege of their help, but I'm kind of stuck, and they make you feel so small for being floored by what they want to make you pay.

I cannot find rumchata anywhere in this fucking town. But I did learn where to get an actual cruller in this fucking hipster donut infested asshole city, so that's one thing. (Seriously, if you ever think your city is infested with idiotic hipsters, come to Seattle or Portland and we'll quickly disabuse you of that notion. They're like termites or rodents of unusual size.)

Comments

Rumchata

[raine]

Did you check Total Wine or BevMo? BevMo's in Ballard; that may be closer for you than Total Wine (I can't remember where that is in Seattle; I know the one across from Alderwood Mall better.)

Re: Rumchata

[gwyn]

There aren't any places like that near me, but someone mentioned going to a place this week and they said they'd look for me. I think there's still an old school liquor store in West Seattle that I have to look at, too.

Re: Rumchata

[raine]

Let me know if you can't find it and I can get you a bottle from the Lynnwood Total Wine.

Re: Rumchata

[gwyn]

I FOUND IT!!

I had to go down toward Southcenter and when I was driving I saw a Total Wine store, so I stopped in and there was a nice fellow who actually helped me find it. He also told me there was another similar one that he liked more, and that they had sample bottles up toward the register, so I picked up a whole bottle of the Rumchata and a sample of the other.

The funny thing is I don't even drink much anymore, it exacerbates my restless leg syndrome so much that I might as well not even try to sleep, but I have to admit I really, really liked the flavor. Now I just have to get a blender stick again and I can make milkshakes of my own!

Re: Rumchata

[raine]

Yay! I'm glad you were able to find a bottle and more. :-) I wonder if you could just freeze some and have it that way?

[dine]

sorry I haven't read your BB story - it's on my list, and I hope to start it tomorrow (too late to begin tonight)

come to Seattle or Portland and we'll quickly disabuse you of that notion. They're like termites or rodents of unusual size SO much this! one just can't get away from then - it's astounding how they infest every single neighborhood in PDX anymore.

[gwyn]

Oh, it's mostly just that…early response has been pretty bad and that makes me feel really bad for my artist. But I found out today that she arted another fic, as well, and that one is doing very well so she's getting lots of good responses on that, which makes me feel a bit better.

I just…the hipsters. They are a plague.

[ratcreature]

It can be crushing when a work falls into seemingly into a void, especially if it took a lot of work. FWIW I've downloaded your Big Bang fic on my ereader but haven't gotten around to it among the other Steve/Bucky fics posted.

BTW, currently your website doesn't respond at all for me.

[gwyn]

I found out the artist made art for a different fic (I didn't know that) and that one is getting lots of hits and comments and kudos, so hopefully she is getting the recognition she deserves!

[grammarwoman]

If I could deliver another cruller to you, I totally would. *HUGS*

[gwyn]

I still owe you guys for buying me one!! I should, like, mail order you some donuts in return!

[grammarwoman]

Goof - I told you we were good. :)

[cesperanza]

PS Same re big bang! totally the wrong time for release - I have them all queued up but HELLO UNIVERSITY STARTS, which lets out the teachers and students who are HALF OF FANDOM. Not to mention everyone on late-august family labor day weekend vacations (who is not me)

It's a timing issue, not you!

[cesperanza]

PS Having collaborated with you, I KNOW. :D

[gwyn]

Everything about this big bang has been a complete clusterfuck--I never even thought about the date thing and teachers/students. Of course they'd pick that kind of a date. This was my first BB and I just thought it was me and my issues with the halfwits who run the stucky library, but it turns out that there are other people who have been really enraged by the whole thing.

It's not that people aren't going to the story, it's mostly that early results are, shall we say, pretty fucking discouraging. But I kind of expected it; I just didn't want to disappoint the artist, because I have her listed as co-creator. But I found out tonight that she did art for another fic that is doing well and has lots of kudos and comments, so hopefully she is getting the love she deserves out of that one.

[cesperanza]

Don't assume - people open tabs on this sort of thing, which registers as a hit but the story hasn't been read; people download onto their Kindles etc.

[mackiemesser.livejournal.com]

Argh, I'm sorry that you had such a cluster of bad. :(

Is this Apple tech support? They are pretty high on themselves, always were, but they're still techs in a call center; maybe there's another avenue to fix the problem?

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

No, it's a couple of people, just household things and the ISP I have for my work web site and the vids site. Not that I think Apple is all that great.

[mackiemesser.livejournal.com]

Ah, that's too bad. :(

[destina.livejournal.com]

Dude, there are so many big bang stories that were posted all at once that all I can say is, maybe be patient...there's a lot of sorting through to do, there, for the average reader. A lot. They are all huge stories. I feel overwhelmed by sheer mass of words, and I *love* huge stories.

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

Oh I know, it's just…between the creation-date shit where AO3's draft creation date is how it's sorted and it got dumped into the collection with the week-old listings, and then no RSS feed, it's disappeared. I think I told you at VVC I was expecting it to be unfavorably compared to another fic, and then the ending I wrote I was pretty sure people would hate, so…no surprises for me. I am just really heartsick because I put the artist as a co-creator so she could see kudos and comments, and instead all she's seen is two comments after over 1,000 hits, and I think that's got to be disappointing to her. She was kinda excited about seeing all the kudos and comments. Especially with the Sucky Library mods reneging on their promise to feature the fics on the "front page"--I don't see that changing in the future.

[trepkos.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the links!

[machinistm.livejournal.com]

Thanks much for the links! <3

I have so many fics bookmarked for reading right now it will take months to clear them, and the bb works are all so much and so long, so perhaps just hang on in there? *hugs*

[gwyn-r.livejournal.com]

I don't really think it'll change, to be honest--there's this insanely irritating shit that AO3 pulls where the creation date will affect a fic getting posted (it appeared in the middle of the Aug. 24 fics, which was days and days behind where people were probably reading), and then the RSS feeds won't pick it up…I'm just really heartsick for my artist, who I made a co-creator so she could see the kudos and comments. It's got to be so incredibly disappointing to her. I warned her I wasn't BNF enough to get people to come read it on my own, but I'd really hoped her incredible art might lure people in.